Identity self portrait mini project.
This series of photographs delves deeply into themes of identity, self-discovery, and the conflict between societal expectations and personal desires. The illuminated balloon replacing the subject’s head becomes a powerful metaphor, serving both as a mask and a representation of the subject’s emotions and turmoil. The balloon, glowing with a surreal, almost childlike quality, evokes nostalgia for the simplicity and freedom of childhood—a time unburdened by the rigidity and monotony of adult life. Its weightlessness contrasts sharply with the heavy symbolism of the suit the subject wears, a uniform of professionalism that hints at his role as an office worker trapped in the endless loop of societal conformity. The suit signifies the oppressive nature of his identity, reduced to being just another cog in the machine, an “ant” in the larger structure of a system that suppresses individuality.
The balloon also serves as a visual representation of his inner conflict—its glow suggests fleeting moments of clarity and self-awareness, while its fragile, impermanent nature symbolizes his longing to escape the identity forced upon him. The balloon’s presence acts as a mask, concealing the emotions and dissatisfaction beneath, while amplifying his hatred toward the person he has become. The use of color strengthens this narrative: blue evokes sadness and the monotony of routine, purple reflects introspection and the deep yearning for escape, and yellow hints at fleeting hope or memories of a happier, untainted self.
The subject’s body language—tense and reflective—paired with the dramatic interplay of light and shadow, further emphasizes his internal struggle. The darkness around him reinforces his feelings of isolation, while the illuminated balloon stands out, as if mocking him with its surreal brightness, a symbol of both his desire for freedom and his inability to achieve it. By removing the subject’s facial features, the series universalizes its narrative, inviting viewers to project their own feelings of nostalgia, dissatisfaction, or longing onto the imagery. Ultimately, the photographs capture the haunting idea of a man who despises his identity and longs to shed the mask of adulthood, yearning to return to a time when life was defined by freedom, playfulness, and authenticity.
Statement of intent
The intention behind this series of photographs was to explore themes of identity, nostalgia, and the conflict between personal desires and societal expectations. The images were created in my living room, using household lamps as lighting sources to craft dramatic and moody atmospheres. I utilized a tripod to keep the camera steady and relied on a timer to capture self-portraits. To achieve the surreal illusion of the balloon replacing my head, I held a lit-up balloon in my mouth, allowing it to appear as though it were my head glowing with emotion and inner turmoil.
By wearing a formal suit, I aimed to symbolize the restrictive nature of adulthood, particularly the monotonous life of an office worker. The suit represents societal conformity and the feeling of being trapped in an endless cycle of professional obligations, reducing individuality to mere functionality. The illuminated balloon, serving as both a mask and a metaphor for my emotions, embodies the tension between self-awareness and dissatisfaction. Its glow evokes fleeting moments of clarity, while its fragility and playful, weightless nature reflect a yearning to return to the innocence and freedom of childhood.
The colour choices and lighting were intentionally dramatic to convey specific emotions: blue suggests melancholy, purple reflects introspection, and yellow symbolizes fleeting hope or moments of self-discovery. The series aims to capture the struggle of defining one’s identity within societal constraints while expressing the longing to shed the burdens of adulthood and rediscover authenticity and joy.