what?	self portraits and portraits doing our makeup and picking out outfits
who?	myself and my sister
where?	in our bedrooms and in the bathroom
how?	using my camera on a tripod
why?	to show how we experiment with makeup and fashion to express ourselves environmental portraits

STORY: What is your story?

• 3 words- just being myself.
• A sentence- some may say that my rebellion is limiting me, but my rebellion is more about bettering myself.
• A paragraph- I spend a ridiculous amount of time surrounded by horses, and doing my school work, that I have in some ways forgotten to be a teenager. I don’t go to parties or even stay up late, because I know that in the morning I will have to be up by 5am as my horses rely on me to feed them and put them out in the field. I chose this for myself and I wouldn’t change it for the world. But just because I have this hobby doesn’t mean I don’t express myself with fashion, hair and makeup.

NARRATIVE: How will you tell your story?

• Images > self portraits in different locations that relate to the subject matter (yard, charity shops, home), landscapes (yard, beach) and surrounding (my room)
• Archives > old photos of what I used to look like, show how I have changed
• Texts > poems I have written in my notes, text message from dad and mum
• Visuals > quick snippets of myself at the yard, picking what I am going to wear, putting make up on, doing my hair, helping my sister with her hair for gym, doing my school work etc
• Sound > sounds around the yard and home, chats with friends and family, spoken words of poems from my notes
• Archives > old videos from mine and mums phone

Idea – The Modern Virtruvian Man/Adolescence

I plan to create a photo book following the theme of masculinity and exploring the way in which most men naturally desire to be the “alpha” during their phase of adolescence. I want to highlight that the male body image pushed by magazines, reality shows and so called “experts” are largely unachievable and doesn’t just effect women, when I’d argue the matter affects men to the same degree. Thinks links to love and rebellion as I am trying to push for men to love themselves as their own rebellion towards their own bodies should come to an end.

The Vitruvian Man (a key inspiration for me project/photo book) is a drawing made by the Italian polymath Leonardo da Vinci in about 1490. It is accompanied by notes based on the work of the Roman architect Vitruvius. It demonstrates the ideal proportions based on science, maths and the golden ratio. The whole theme of the “ideal” body and body image is the perception of the aesthetics or sexual attractiveness of ones own body. It involves how a person sees themselves, compared to the standards that have been set by society, standards I both agree and disagree with. In order to tackle this, I will delve into the struggles men face on a daily basis in order to feel excepted in society, the need to fit a stereotypical mould that is the muscular, fearless, heroic type of male that has perfect proportions to which almost all men feel pressured or almost forced to fit into at some point in their lifetime. The book I hope will show struggles of adolescence in young males and insecurities brought up as a result, leading to me to also delve into the world of body dysmorphia, highlighting mental struggles brought up on body image associated with men which unfortunately often isn’t mentioned in main stream media and the likes. Furthermore, I will also explore gym culture and the taboo world of bodybuilding and the need to “better” ourselves and how many of us, (myself included) feel a great need to improve our body image and presentation towards others. I will also touch on lesser talked about topics such as steroids, sarms and other performance enhancing drugs that many men worldwide feel the need to abuse in order to fit that “mould” i mentioned earlier.

The reason for me exploring this theme and basing my photo book on it is because this is a topic I as well as many other men are or were deeply affected by at some point during adolescence, which means by having so much emotion towards this topic and own experiences, I believe I will be able to create a better quality and more understanding final piece, utilizing skills learnt during my Zine and Film project previously made. All men at some point have strive for perfection in something, many in their own appearance, both mentally and physically. This need for perfection comes as a sort of validation, a purpose. I want to highlight these struggles but also highlight other struggles and negative mind thoughts men face during adolescence, the need to fit a certain mould, look a certain way, act a given way, and the aspiration to achieve certain things in order to prove to themselves that they are male. Is this necessary? Should men face these mental struggles? Or is it a natural part of life? What does it mean to be male? I will also explore the mental health aspect men face, as well as promoting self love and rebelling against the expectations of appearance on social media also being key themes in my photo-book.

What does it mean to be male? Being a man to me means being uniquely you. It means not being afraid to show the world who you are, exactly as you are. Being a man is never being afraid to show your emotions, to ask for help when you need it. More commonly however, it refers to your biological complexion, how you are made, your DNA makeup, which chromosomes you have, what genitalia you were born with and thus is a title you are assigned to at birth, unlike a man which is who you develop to become over many years of growth, both physically and mentally. Furthermore, being a male has a socially defined role, often to be the bread winner, the alpha, the protector, however, this can be argued isn’t always the case. Should males accept these roles? Is this the correct definition? What does the ideal male look like? What are the mental challenges adolescents face? I will explore this further throughout my project.

STORY: What is your story?

Describe in:

• 3 words
  • What’s left behind
• A sentence
  • A story about the legacy and memories that my GrandFather (Papa) Terry Batho left behind.
• A paragraph
  • This story is about looking to into the life of my Grandfather (Papa) Terry Batho (My Mother’s father). Terry Batho was quite a quiet man who. was extremely kind and loving, he was the handy man around the house and and worked for his brother in law driving trucks. However, he had a passion for engines and mechanics. Over the years, Terry Batho had many classic Mini’s. He was a one of the founding members and chairman of the Jersey Mini Club and went to many classic car and mini meets and car shows. He won medals and awards for his cars. In October 2010 Terry passed away because of a very aggressive cancer. At his funeral there was a driveby of many Mini’s from the mini club. In the emotional drive by, was my dad and my uncle driving my papa’s latest and most prised mini (it was a limited edition 2000 Mini Cooper works). I was also sitting in the back of the car. This was the first time I remember being in the car. I remember 10 year old me falling in love with the classic interior and from that day on I have in love the with cars aswell. When I passed my driving test in November 2020 just over 10 years after the passing of my grandad I bought my own classic mini. This story is about documenting the legacy that he left behind, I will be documenting his wife that still lives in the house, the garage that still has all his tools in and the car that is still owned by my Aunty.

NARRATIVE: How will you tell your story?

• Images > new photographic responses, photo-shoots
  • A photoshoot of his car, the details inside.
  • The home garage.
  • The home and his wife, my nan.
  • The mini club and his friends.
• Archives > old photos from family albums, iPhone
  • Archive images from mini shows.
  • Wedding photos
  • Old images of him with us as children
• Texts > letters, documents, poems, text messages
  • Wedding certificate
  • Vows
  • letters between my nan and my papa
  • Statements, quotes from his friends and family

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STORY: What is your story?
Describe in:

• 3 words – Male Identity Story
• A sentence – a story of someone trying to fit in / belong to a group
• A paragraph – I am going to take multiple staged shots of a ‘lads night out’ using only one protagonist repeated throughout all the shots. Some of the photos will be simple and represent a nigh out whereas others will have a deeper meaning emphasizing the powerful moments among friends on a night out.

NARRATIVE: How will you tell your story?

• Images > photo-shoots, heavily edited
• Archives > old photos from family albums
• Texts > Paul m smiths blog / book, websites and books with relevance to Robert Cappa, ‘Photography and truth’ post