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Plan for Constructed Realities Exhibition

For the exhibition which takes place at The Jersey Arts Centre on 27.11.17 entitled ‘Constructed Realities’, I have decided to not use images made thus far from my ‘relationships’ project for my coursework, and instead, use the images I produced from my tableaux shooting which I focused on the concept of childhood memories.


The exhibition’s synopsis is on the Arts Centre website and explains the purpose of the exhibition:

“This exhibition brings together work by Hautlieu School A-Level Photography students including their responses to a series of inspirational workshops, masterclasses and lectures delivered by Archisle International Photographers in Residence 2017 Tanja Deman and Jonny Briggs. The classes have been hosted by Hautlieu School in partnership with the Archisle educational programme and represent a range of multi-media creative outcomes inspired by the themes of family and environment.” 

The exhibition takes place from Monday 27th November to Saturday 23rd December.


I have been using the last month of my studies to construct my own personal study surrounding the ideas of relationships in my own family. In my previous blog posts, I have given a justification of what my project is about and what it encapsulates, as well as its purpose and I have been busy producing images to eventually come together to provide the main body of my project which wull also be accompanied by text and transcriptions from interviews with my parents. The project is kick-started by my parents divorce when I was 4 years old and this then branches out to a much wider topic of relationships – relationships which I have built with people who I have come to grow up with in my life during the time in which I have matured and become more knowledgeable of the world around me. From a divorce, I have experienced two different relationship with both my parents and this has affected myself as a human and the young man I am now – from which, I have built my own relationships and experienced my own interpretation of love. I now have a half-sister who is currently 4 years old and I also have a girlfriend – my first love and this concept of relationships and love, as well as underpinning topics of loss, lust, attachment and fear is beginning to make for an interesting narrative where I tell the story of my life from a child to a young man – a narrative in which I am the center point.

However, this narrative is not yet constructed enough to tell a cohesive story as I have not been working on it for a long enough period of time to feel as if I can show this as a catalogue of work which the audience can connect with. As well, because the project is based around a range of different divisions made up of the starting point of my mum and dad’s relationship, their divorce, my relationship with both of them and then leading onto my relationship with both my sister and girlfriend, I have so far, only got a mixture of these different aspects – adding to the idea of telling a confused and dislocated narrative, difficult to understand at this point. This is why I have chosen to exhibit my previous work using the relationship between people and objects to show childhood memories as this relates to how I am working now and it also shows my journey to where I am now.

I have again, shown this series of work in a previous blog post so will not explain it here and instead, this will be done more concisely and poetically in my artist statement which will be present at the exhibition for my audience to get an idea of what the work is. However, I feel like the series of work I will be showing is still very strong and does portray a message – a message of nostalgia which my viewers can all relate to and I believe that the use of portraits as well as objects, provides an interesting juxtaposition which is also accompanied by a very powerful image of a note each of my subjects wrote to explain their choice of ‘memory’. As well, the use archives is reliable to what I am doing now as I will be looking further into the idea of old memories which bring back either good or bad thoughts. I feel like delving into your onw personal, family archive can generate so many emotions and the showing the relation between this memory and the person it is related to tells an interesting story.

Therefore, for the exhibition in a couple of weeks, I have created a couple of digital versions of potential layouts I can achieve to show my images on a large scale.


In Photoshop, I created a couple of mock up displays of what I may produce for the real exhibition in which my images will be displayed on. Below is the first display I created, but realised, this may be difficult to achieve due to the lack of space we each have to present our work.

The second mock-up I produced took into account the space I am allowed and this is the display I am most likely to use. As you can see, I have also put in my images to the same set out to see what it would look like.

I intend to have each diptych below one another, creating a stair-like display as ach diptych will not be placed directly underneath and instead, to the side. Next to each diptych will be the note the subject handwrote which I then photographed in their hand. The diptychs will be A3 and the notes, A5. I hope for the outcome to be very contemporary and visually pleasing. As well as telling a story of memories as a whole, each combination of the portrait, object and note tells its own story of the subject.

 

From the original images I had of the handwritten notes by each of my family members relating to the meaning behind their chosen object, I have altered them to be in black and white as I believe this looks much more effective because of the contrast available to me – I increased these when editing so that there is a clear contrast between illuminated whites and darkened blacks to create shadows against the white paper held in their hand.


Here is my artist statement which will go alongside my series of work at the exhibition:

3 Diptychs Representing a Childhood Memory

The brain is a magical organ of our body; it has the ability to hold limitless information, thoughts, ideas and memories from times forgotten. Taking inspiration from Rita Puig-Serra Costa, these 3 diptychs come from a series encapsulating the notion of childhood nostalgia. For most of us, our memories from childhood are a certain haze which, as we grow older, becomes more and more of a distant recollection of a time which is hard to understand the details of.

In this catalogue of works, I have explored the relationship we have with memories from our past – whether happy or upsetting, they exist and are sometimes consigned to an archive in our brain to be forgotten. Memories generate an emotion which may be difficult to describe but easier to visually portray. Using my Nan, Mum and Girlfriend, I have created a collection of juxtapositions between portraits and still-life object-imagery which represent their own childhood reminiscence.

A photograph is often a fragmentation of the truth and represents a one dimensional perspective but I have attempted to create a decryption of what is often hidden in this series. Each diptych is accompanied by a handwritten note from each subject explaining the context of their choice of memory.

 

Worship: Development

For my next shoot, I am going to create pictures in reference to my Worship mind-map so I am going to plan and prepare for it by jotting down words that are associated with the key term used, or describe a picture that my mind sees when I hear or see a term.

Appearance – clothing, make-up, conscious of skin, toying with gender differences/ transvestites/ transgender. – Linking to the work of Paul M Smith – http://www.paulmsmith.co.uk/index.html

Family – different roles within the home, sitting at the dinner table with one another, acting and dressing up as each member of the family – In relation to a Larry Sultan method of taking photographs e.g. the composition of the photograph – http://larrysultan.com/

Sport – watching from the pub/sidelines, becoming a player, manager, official or referee – again linking to Smith

Religion – a lonely man on a bench outside the church, praying, suggesting he is a widower – again referring to Sultan, particularly the composition of the man sat on the bed.

Technology – on the phone, in town to portray how everybody is on their phones, gamers, my sister on her iPad

Night/Pub life – drunk, silly behavior, playing pool, selecting music on the juke box, drinking alcohol, are men there lonely? Watching the football, “ladish” nature


In my mind-map from previous blog posts, I drafted the term celebrities, and of course everybody has their idols and who they look up to. From a very early age we are exposed to the glitz and glamour of Hollywood stars whether this individual is an actor, singer or dancer etc… Perhaps people aspire to look like them, sound like them or possess the same talent they have which creates this sense of worship as the “common people” idolize them.

For me, David Bowie has always been a hero of mine as he promotes being yourself and his unique personality always reflected his music. David Bowie, throughout his long and successful career adopted numerous different stage characters or alter egos to accompany his music productions, for example, his most notable and recognized character development is Ziggy Stardust. Ziggy Stardust was a  flamboyant and androgynous character with distinctive reddish-brown hair and striking clothing.

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Other renown character alter egos are Major Tom, the Thin White Duke,  Aladin Sane and Jareth the Goblin King; all of which depict a different Bowie era or phase.

The influence Bowie has given me is the feeling that I should appear how I like and say and do things that make me happy, yet I discovered Bowie through my father and his mother as they both connected through the singer/actor, demonstrating how music, which is an art just like photography, can unite people.

In Paul M Smith’s photography, he portrays a theme using himself as the model throughout which is a technique I would like to adopt bearing in mind the various identities Bowie possessed.

Photoshoot Plan///Significant objects

For my next photo shoot I will focus Significant Objects. Such as my Mothers journal and my old Bible. This shoot will be a very important shoot as it will act as a narrative for the rest of my photos. It also clearly show where I wanted to go with my project showing how it’s been a painful journey however with this journal is clearly shows God has been through it all. I am going to read through this journal and take photos of anything that I find significant. I will do the same with the bible. I will find any significant chapters that helped my Mum and photograph them.  The Bible I will be taking photos of is an old bible, one of my first bibles I was given. This holds a lot of sentimental value for me as I have had it since I was a young child. I also like then plain cream colour it holds as it looks fairly used and old which is what I want it to look like. I will waking photos of my bible with a white background. This will show off that worn look. After this shoot I will move onto the journal. Where I will also take photos of the journal on a white background. I like the idea of the journal as it’s showing the journey and it also shows my mums handwriting making it personal. I think this will be a very important shoot. I also want to take photos of a burning JEP (newspaper). I want to do this to show how wrong the press can get stories, reporting fake made up facts, sensationalism and showing complete bias to one side. Buildings stories instead of collecting facts. To show that frustration I want to burn their newspaper.

Philophobia / Autophobia

As I have been generating ideas for my personal study surrounding the idea of relationships within my own life and my own family, I have also generated a few ideas which I believe I could draw into the study at some point to accompany other main ideas.

Although not familiar with the phobia as no one I know has this particular phobia, I believe it to be a very interesting concept which may work quite well as an underpinning theme throughout my project; I have started to research into the phobias of love and lonesomeness and I feel may be able to express these a ceratin way through my own interpretation of them – as this is only what I can do as I don’t know anyone with the fears but believe their relation to my main theme of ‘relationships’ could go hand-in-hand quite well as the two phobias are often scientifically linked with one another also.  Although, I don’t have to directly or explicitly make it obvious or known that I am addressing the phobia in my own interpretation of it, it can be a concept that the audience eventuality realise as they progress through the book – or a concept that may be evident to certain people depending on the way they read visual prompts or it may only be noticeable to myself, however, would like to, in some way, represent what I believe a fear of love/loneliness may look like.

However, if I was going to show these phobias in some way in my project, I would have to be careful not offend anyone who may have it but would address it very carefully and very subtly to contrast the idea of cohesion and unity between the people you love – I first came up with the idea after realising the divorce of my parents would make an interesting starting point for a story about love and relationship. Love is such a strong concept that can unify people in ways which we like to think cant be broken but eventually, may become broken – in the process of breaking the people involved in the relationship whether it be romantically or emotionally with a relative. My efforts to re-build a relationship which feels like it has been somewhat lost with my dad also links to this idea.


(Words from fearof.net) The fear of love (or falling in love) phobia is known as Philophobia. The word originates from Greek “filos” which means ‘loving or beloved’. Individuals who suffer from this phobia fear romantic love or forming emotional attachments of any sort. Often this phobia is known to have cultural or religious roots, where the person may have been committed to an arranged marriage and hence fears falling in love.

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This phobia is more common in women than in men. The condition can greatly affect one’s life to an extent that it becomes difficult to commit or form healthy relationships. Such people tend to live their lives in solitude.

Philophobia is an unwarranted and an irrational fear of falling in love. Sometimes, the sufferer does fall in love but it causes an intense emotional turmoil in his/her mind. There are many theories why this could happen. Therefore, there is a possibility of falling in love when you are a sufferer of this fear but it may still remain in your mind – the idea that you fear to form any sort of emotional connection with a partner and this may hinder your relationship as a result.

Symptoms may include:

Some people are so afraid of love that they cannot open up to anyone. They do have committed relationships, but cannot maintain any of them.

Their well being often depends on the responses they receive from the person they love. This can keep them high strung and anxious all the time. They may be extremely possessive or, conversely, they may drive away their loved ones with their detachment.

One also experiences severe anxiety owing to the pressures of commitment: restlessness, shallow breathing, rapid heart rate, nausea, chest pains etc are a few physical symptoms that can be attributed to Philophobia.

Panic and anxiety attacks are also common. These can be terrible since the sufferer often feels dizzy, or feels like running away, crying, shaking or sweating profusely or even feels as if s/he is fainting.


Autophobia, also called monophobia, isolophobia, or eremophobia, is the specific phobia of isolation; a morbid fear of being egotistical, or a dread of being alone or isolated. Sufferers need not be physically alone, but just to believe that they are being ignored or unloved.

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Autophobia can be associated with or accompanied by several other phobias such as agoraphobia. This means people might be afraid of going out in public, being caught in a crowd, being alone, or being stranded.

Persons suffering from autophobia are unable to do many simple tasks that most can do easily. The fear of being alone also leads to bad relationships as the individual prefers abuse to being left alone – the area in which I believe I can link relationships with these two fears.

Physical symptoms:

Feeling unsteady, experiencing lightheadedness or dizziness

Feeling of choking

Rapid heart rate, palpitations or pounding heart

Sweating

Chest pain and discomfort

Nausea or gastrointestinal distress

Trembling or shaking

Numbness or tingling sensations

As this seems to be a more severe phobia in which sufferers may become suicidal or may begin to self-abuse themselves, OI feel like this may not be as very suitable concept to follow through with and may focus mainly on ‘Philophobia’ as I feel like I could represent this in a more interesting and abstract manner by using my knowledge of love and its power and then transferring this to a direct oppostite.

Worship

The process of worship is one recognized as a “feeling or expression of reverence and adoration for a deity”. The term is usually associated with religion as people who are religious, worship a God or a Goddess. However, considering this sense of modern day worship by analyzing how, what, where and why we reverence the things we do. Recently, I have researched and discovered for myself the power and strength that the church withheld in history, however, as studies have shown, religion is in decline, particularly with the younger generations.

The slow abandonment of religion has left a void for people to fill their time and occupy their minds with. For me, I want to explore what the modern Western society has opted to worship nowadays and why people have chosen this activity to pass time, The questions I long to ask myself whilst working on this specific project are:

 

  • Do people worship subconsciously?
  • What do people worship?
  • Why do people worship the activity/pass time that they do?
  • How do they worship?
  • Where do they worship?
  • Is it fulfilling?

A Discovery into my Mum & Dad’s Relationship

A couple of days ago, I went to collect a ‘box of memories’ from my dad’s flat to help me with my research into my mum and dads relationship as well as their divorce. He has previously told me about this shoebox he has filled with memories he has form his time with my mum. This includes postcards my mum sent from France when she 18 and my dad was 20. This was in the very early stages of their relationship when they had only been going for about a year, yet the postcards were filled with very cute and sincere messages telling my dad that she missed him and she can’t wait to see him. These are resources I intend to use for my project where I will photograph them against a blank background to achieve a studio effect where all you are focusing on is the object. These postcards were from my dads memory box as I said and he keeps it in his garage shoved underneath all his other junk and is often forgotten about until discovered when rummaging through the mess every year or so but I an glad I have got my hands on this to use the appropriate resources suitable for the story I want to tell. The postcards sent by my mum to dad will help to show the relationship the once had by using physical information – a love letter essentially. However, this, I intend to photograph very soon. Meanwhile, I have come across a new object which has sparked my interest to talk about.

Retrieving the special box of my dad sparked a thought that my mum might also have one of these, even though she has never talked or mentioned it or something similar before, as well, I had never seen something like it before, I believe this to be because my mum now has a very strong relationship with a new man which is a prominent figure in my life also who has been present in my life for now thirteen years, however, I asked my mum if she had something similar and she told me “yes”. This was great news and I was eager to get my hands on it to see what was inside and if there was anything that went hand-in-hand with that f what I found in in my dad’s collection of good memories from their time together. As well, everything I found was also new to me as I was very young when they split so remember nothing apart from myself speaking to dad about it. All the objects were new and it was great for me to see them and learn the stories behind them. However, when we went looking in the loft for the box my mum thought she had  kept in this particular place, we could not find it and we emptied the whole oft and looked through each and every box, yet the collection of nostalgic objects was not there. My mum, as well as myself, was mortified as it many I could not retrieve nay physical information and evidence form mum’s behalf of the great times my mum and dad had together apart from hundreds of photos of us as a family from me as a baby to me at 4 years of age. SAs well, it meant tat mum had lost this box she treasured and cherished because it was filled with memories from her youth – in the most happiest times of her life – when she met her first love, she married him and had a child with him – this was all gone. However, mum did have some images and cards from their wedding hidden somewhere else and this was where I made my amazing discovery which is perfect to begin the project/book.

Mum began to take all of these images of her and dad at their wedding out this small bag and within that bag, she picked out two cards – one form her to dad the day before their wedding and one from my dad to mum also on the before the wedding, and, by chance, the happen to be the exact same cards they both have to each other! I was shocked but also overjoyed at this because I knew it would be a great way to begin my project, epically after reading inside at what they had both written.

I believe this gesture from both of them and coincidence of this one in a million chance of them both giving the same card to each other, just with a different heart-felt message to one another shows the true meaning of love – that the two of them were in sync with one another and it shows tat perhaps they both knew what they other half would like – they both saw the card in shop and picked it up knowing that it represented them two as a couple and this coincidence shows the concept of love displaying the essence of unity.

I was desperate to photograph the two cards together and make some sort of image out of them! I wanted to create a diptych or one image of the two of them side by side and, although not yet finalised, I’ve got an image I quickly took of them together but the lighting is poor and the image above will not be my final due to the ‘slapdash’ finish of it. I also managed to get an image of the message inside each card. As well, for my final edit of this, I wish to have images of developed exposures from their wedding day alongside the one image of the cards to show the ‘starting chapter’ as such.

Inside the cards, both my mum and dad wrote a very loving and quite emotional message that came from the heart. In the card, they expressed their love for one another and their excitement to begin a new chapter in their life together – this idea of a ‘chapter’ is expressed not only from their words about their life, but it will make-up a ‘chapter’ in the book also.

My dad has never been one for being emotional with his words and is not the best at articulating himself, which I have grown to realise as I have grown up with him and his card was not as in-depth as my mums, which made me chuckle a little because this has not changed. However, although his straight-to-the-pint words are limited in comparison to my mum’s I had an idea to transcribe one statement/comment/sentence form each of their cards and insert this into the book along with the images.  My inspiration for this idea came from Yoshikatsu Fujii’s book of his own parents divorce where he includes transcribed statements from his mum and dad to tell a story more visually.

Below is my mum’s card to my dad:“TO MY DARLING ALEX,

REMEMBER IT’S JUST YOU + ME – THAT’S ALL WE NEED TO KNOW. WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR 8 YEARS AND TOMORROW WE ARE STARTING A WHOLE NEW CHAPTER IN OUR LIVES – THERE HAS NEVER BEEN A DOUBT IN MY MIND THAT THIS IS WHAT I WANT – YOU + ME TOGETHER ALWAYS, I KNEW THAT SINCE I WAS 16.

YOUR MY NUMBER ONE IN THE WORLD MY LITTLE ONE. 

SEE YOU TOMORROW, DON’T BE LATE!

ALL MY LOVE + KISSES

KATHERINE 

XXX”

The statement I believe I will use due to its significance is the point at which my mum says “you + me together always, I knew that since I was 16.” I think I would choose this statement because, for me, it is actually very relatable as I actually fell in love when I was 16 – my girlfriend now is my first love and this was the same for my mum dad – they were both each others first love so there is an uncanny similarity here.

Below is my dad’s card to my mum:

“TO MY DARLING KATHERINE

I LOVE YOU

HERE’S TO FRIDAY

THE BIG DAY

GOOD LUCK

HERE’S TO THE REST OF OUR LIVES TOGETHER

ALL MY LOVE, ALEX

XXXXXX”

From my dad’s card, I think I will choose to transcribe the statement, “here’s to the rest of our lives” because this was their plan and any other lover’s plan when they are about to marry each other and especially commit their lives to one another but it is a shame that at some point, the love does break down – not in all relationships, but many relationships end in a love which distances and becomes very difficult to express so this statement is very significant. However, I may not choose to transcribe any of dad’s statements from his card as the one from my mum speaks a lot.

The print on the card reads:

IN A WORLD OF RUSH AND CRUSH AND CROWDS,

IT ALL COMES DOWN TO THIS — A TENDER WORD, A GENTLE TOUCH, A SMILE, A LOOK, A KISS…

IT ALL COMES DOWN TO FAITH AND TRUST,

IT ALL COMES DOWN TO WHETHER WE’RE GOING IT ALONE OR KNOW WE’RE IN THIS THING TOGETHER,

IN A WORLD OF HYPE AND HURRY,

IN A WORLD OF PUSH AND SHOVE, 

IT ALL COMES DOWN TO YOU AND ME,

IT ALL COMES DOWN TO LOVE

The print on the card alone is very sentimental and is very heart-felt and it sums up love – that no matter what, you will always have on another – act as thought it is just you two in the world and nothing can stop you because love conquers all. I believe in this concept very much and hoe to show it clearly in my project.

 

Further Planning (Format of Project and Visual Diagram)

Over the past couple weeks, I have been producing a couple of handwritten documents/diagrams addressing the content I wish my project to outline and how I will go about this. Discussing and laying out directly the plan and format for my investigation helps not only myself, but the audience to understand my primary thought processes and the hopeful outcome of the project. 


This diagram shows how I wish to set out my project and what I wish to show in the order stated; The project will be based and will revolve around myself as the centre point and then this will branch out into the starting point which consists of my mum and dad; relationship when they were together until I was 4 years old, I will then briefly explore this divorce but then move onto experimenting the experiences I have had with both of my parents and how this is different. This will begin form when I was young and then gradually progress to the stage I am at now with my life and how the experiences I’ve had as a child have shaped me now – which is what the latter of the book will consist of – me as a young adult and the relationships of built independently with other people, including my girlfriend, my sister and my friends.

I have previously mentioned all of the below but I decided to put it into a diagram to make it clear for myself but also the audience. I intend to include other aspects, as well as portraiture and environmental imagery, such as self-portraiture of me with my girlfriend, and I will look at the project by Alec Soth called ‘Looking For Love’, as well as transcribed conversations or statements from the subjects and participants of my book. Over the course of the project, I intend to make a mini ‘behind-the-scenes’ film which shows the processes I go through to make the project which will consist of myself talking to the subjects and the discussing with me their memories they may have chosen as special, in particular, my mum and dad. However, this is just an idea and will finalise this when necessary.


The document below is a handwritten, essential hypothesis by me which outline the format of my project.

Although showing a cohesive narrative filled with the underpinning topic of relationships, I wish to in some way, segment and divide my boo into different parts but I may not do this for the final outcome as I may come to realise that it doesn’t look good and instead, the different images accumulated from each relationship in my life may look better merged together but, right now, I feel like I will be able to tell a better story if I was to physically split each part; my mum and dads romance, their divorce, the relationships with both parents and how I have two different experiences, one being a close relationship, the other being unwelcomingly distant. This will then branch out to my relationship with my sister, Minnie and I will bring in the concept of friendship in this part by showing the contrast between my mature relationships with my mates and Minnie’s very delicate and potential false relationships with her friends as they are still unaware of true friends which are meant to be built up over the years in which you grow and this could be an interesting concept to show – the fun-filled lives of kids the same age as Minnie which are worlds apart from min but in many ways, similar. I will then conclude the project with my relationship with my girlfriend, Lucy and this will show my interpretation of love in comparison to that of my mum and dads and may conclude the project with the same question/concept as that at the beginning – ‘what is love?’ or ‘the tenderness of relationships.

In this part, I will include self-portraits of myself and take inspiration from Alec Soth as well as LaToya Ruby Frazier and hope to show the similarities as well as differences between my current relationship to that of my mum and dads, using archival imagery as sources of inspiration.

 

Typology Study

When searching for influence upon church typology, my teacher suggested assessing the work of Walker Evans. Evans photographs churches in a time before coloured image production, causing the photos to adopt this sepia sense, adding to the aged nature of his photographs.

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Walker Evans’s images of the churches from the 1930s are very much how I like structuring my images with direct and clear focus on the linear of the building against a blank yet idyllic background. Following my recent shoot, I compared my image to his set of images and although the angle of the church is different to how he pictured it, you can see a clear comparison between the two.

FAMILY project: Planning/// Mind Map

On this mind map I have just placed the main thoughts I have about this up coming projects and the different paths I could take. The main ideas that I could explore are my families FAITH or my grandmothers DEMENTIA and how the roles have changed between family members. I took inspiration from my exam project as I really enjoyed that project. I also want to incorporate that into my project. Through difficult and upsetting times our families faith has kept us together and given us hope, its such a large part to our family. Less so but my great grandmothers dementia is also a large part of the family as my Nan has to work around this and look after her mother like shes her child. The roles in my family have somewhat changed.

Primary Inspirations/Thoughts for My Project

Primary Preferred Artists
  • Phillip Toledano – When I Was Six
  • Yoshikatsu Fujii – Red String
  • Colin Pantall – Sofa Portraits
  • Arno Brignon – Joespehine
  • Brooklyn Beckham – What I See
  • Paul Gaffney – We Make The Path By Walking
  • Sophie Calle
  • Hekki Kaski – Tranquility
  • Rita Puig-Serra Costa – Where Mimosa Bloom
Arno Brignon - Josephine

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“July 1st, 2009, birth of Joséphine. Doubt and fear mingle with joy and pride. Having a child can be the simplest thing in the world. For us, it was long, unlikely, unique. In maternity, they call it a “precious pregnancy”. It is also an imbalance announced to our life as a couple, a love story for two to rebuild to three.”

 

This series by French artist, Arno Brignon looks at the fragility of birth and being a mother and how carefully you need to transform your life in order to mold this new introduction into your being as human – what you lived for before pregnancy all of a sudden changes and this explored through a very diverse range of portraits and landscapes delicately addressing the topic of birth and the fear of your family crumbling.

I believe the concept and content of this very moving series is relatable to my thoughts for my project where I will look at the fragility of family life through divorce and the events that come after this. I love the colours in this series and the textures that are achieved from using film as opposed to digital. The graininess is very nostalgic and suitable.

Paul Gaffney - We Make The Path By Walking

The British Journal Of Photography writes “Nothing much is happening in the images and there are no people in sight, yet everything is happening; knotted, overgrown roots catch the light and weave in and out to form complex networks; a craggy cliff-side reveals an intricate patterned texture; windswept vegetation exposes an inviting pathway. Gaffney’s sensitive handling of the landscape allows his subjects to breathe, and through their very subtlety the images sing.”

It is Gaffney’s first self-publishes book and contains photographs taken in rural Spain, Portugal and France. The idea he explains was to explore long-distance walking as “a form of meditation and personal transformation.”

Although this project does not include any people whatsoever and focuses solely on landscapes and the environment around us, the images included in the series I hope will influence the style of imagery I capture for the images I produce of the environmental/location aspect of my project. What I like about the images are the very surrealist sense about them, as in some examples, it looks very overgrown with greenery and this often juxtaposes against an urban background. My images will not be as dramatic as this but will adapt the effect of looking hazy.

Heikki Kaski - Tranquility 

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Heikki Kaski (born in Kantvik, Finland, 1987) lives and works in Finland and throughout Scandinavia.

In the series, ‘Tranquillity’, there is a tension, a beat-down quality, that is beautifully conveyed in the barely balanced framing and dusty, drained palette of the photographs.

Heikki Kaski’s pictures of the town in California with a now population of 799 people and its inhabitants. It is a fractured series of reflections on a landscape that seems to have outlived its own history. He tells the story of the very quiet and isolated town and the people within through smart and sleek images of objects, portraits and landscapes. The images are very aesthetically pleasing and it something I am hoping to show in my project consisting of similar style images. Although a completely different context, the look and meaning behind the project will be similar to that of Kaski; I will look to the show the people that have a particular relation to environments and how this affects the lifestyle of these people. Although focusing on divorce, I am focusing on memories and the thoughts of my mum and dad that take them back to “good times” as such which will be displayed through very simple images of environments and portraits.

What I like about the project is the physical book which showcases the work so very elegantly. The set-out of the images on the pages, the colours involved and the overall look is very representative of the thoughts I have in mind to be minimalist in my presentation.

Rita Puig-Serra Costa - Where Mimosa Bloom

Rita Puig-Serra Costa’s work is very captivating and speaks lots about family and the relatives within shown through the thoughtful use of showing a family tree through the archival portraits of her family members.

Dealing with the grief that the photographer suffered following the death of her mother, ‘Where Mimosa Bloom’ by Rita Puig Serra Costa takes the form of an extended farewell letter; with photography skilfully used to present a visual dedication through speech and imagery to her deceased mother. This grief memoir about the loss of her mother is part meditative photo essay, part family biography and part personal message to her mother. These elements combine to form a fascinating and intriguing  discourse on love, loss and sorrow. “Where Mimosa Bloom” is the result of over two years work spent collecting and curating materials and taking photographs of places, objects and people that played a significant role in her relationship to her mother, writes the site’s statement in which the book is available of purchase.

The concept is something similar to what I hope to follow through with in my own memoir to my mum and dad and myself and the lives we have since followed after the division of the family. I will be focusing on the relatives from then and from now who have played  significant role in shaping my life to what it is now and who I am now because I feel using the technique of including myself and revolving the project around myself will make it easier for me to tell a better story.

I have already looked at the work of Serra-Costa and really enjoyed producing something so contemporary which revolves around the close collaboration with my subjects to produce the end result – I look forward to doing so again in my current project but on a much larger scale.

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My Idea

I am going to focus my study on my mum and dad and the event that changed my own experiences as well their own and the events we would come to experience together, as a collective throughout my upbringing as a child into a teenager and into a young adult to who I am now – their divorce. When I was at the tender age of 4 – when I was aware of my surroundings and what went on in my life – who my most closest relatives were and who I could put my trust into to develop as human to who I am now. At 4, however, you don’t know the concept of love and what the event of you being born can do to a couple who were once unconditionally in love with each other. It causes stress, friction and unwanted distancing from one another – love has the potential to eventually break the people involved.

I have therefore chosen to explore this very fragile and mildly taboo subject of divorce further in my own personal investigation for the year to come. The final result of this very in-depth and rigorous investigation about the relationship which was once there between my mother and father and to what it is now will be a photobook consisting of the images I aim to produce for the remainder of my A2 year.

When handed the task to collate several ideas about what you wish to hone in on for your own personal study at the beginning of the week, it is an understatement to say that I struggled to find something I had the passion and motivation to do. I wanted to focus on the concept of family because I feel like more of a narrative can be told through this concept and I was very eager to start exploring own family. Hover, I did not know what this “special” thing was that I actually wanted to look into because I couldn’t think of anything that would generate some exciting thoughts in my mind. I had the idea to use my sister – to show the contrast between my childhood and hers through t use of my own personal archival imagery, or maybe the use of my girlfriend and her own family and the juxtaposition of her own and my now family and idea of “family”, however, this did not excite me enough and I finally came to the conclusion to investigate the divorce if my mum and ad when I was at the tender age of 4. This very influential event has affected my life since the very day I found out the spit of my parents and even though I d not fully understand this very complex subject and concept when told at the time, it has followed me throughout my life and it has moulded how I am, as well the rest of my family, including my now 4 year old sister herself and my relationship with her.

I will be focusing predominantly on the work of Japanese photographer, Yoshikatsu Fujii. In particular, I will be using her book, Red String as my inspiration for my project based around my parents and myself and my relationship with both of them. 

Yoshikatsu Fujii was born and raised in Hiroshima City. He graduated from Tokyo Zokei University of Arts with BA in Art Film. He began photography work in Tokyo in 2006. His photographic works often deal with historical themes and memory lingering on in contemporary events. 

What I love about Fujii’s work is the very diverse range of materials and resources used in the book. Not only is the actual book handmade very carefully with fabric and actual red-string used as decoration throughout, but he has used archival imagery from his personal archive about his mother and father, but also inserts of texts and transcribed discourse from his parents and contemporary imagery to balance out the theme of looking back at the past but also living in the moment and exploring more about his present day family.

The reasoning behind the title ‘Red String’ is because of a legend that use to exist in Japan. In Japan, legend has it that a man and woman who are predestined to meet have been tied at the little finger by an invisible red string since the time they were born.
Unfortunately, the red string tying my parents undone, broke, or perhaps was never even tied to begin with. But if the two had never met, I would never have been born into this world. If anything, you might say that there is an unbreakable red string of fate between parent and child.

Fujii’s book about his parents divorce ‘Red String’

 

Mind Map of Ideas for my Project