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What is a Personal Study?

The aim of this unit is to critically investigate, question and challenge a particular style, area or work by artists/ photographer(s) which will inform and develop your own emerging practice as a student of photography. The unit is designed to be an extension of your practical work in your Personal Investigation module where the practical informs and develops the theoretical elements and vice versa of your ongoing project.

Your Personal Study is a written and illustrated dissertation, including a written essay (1000-3000 words) and a photographic body of work (250- 500 photos) with a number of final outcomes produced from your Personal Investigation unit.

This year you have to make a photo book, either online using Blurb or by hand using traditional book binding techniques, which you design to include both your essay and a final selection and sequence of your photographs produced as a response to your chosen theme(s) of FAMILY or ENVIRONMENT

In addition, we are also expecting that those of you who want to go above and beyond to achieve top grades will produce a mini film/ pod cast with sound and images based on the same narrative as above

All your usual research, analysis, planning, recording, experimentation and evaluation will be posted onto your BLOG

What it says in the syllabus (Edexcel)

  • Essential that students build on their prior knowledge and experience developed during the course.
  • Select artists work, methods and art movements appropriate to your previous coursework work as a suitable basis for your study.
  • Investigate a wide range of work and sources.
  • Develop your written dissertation in the light of your chosen focus from the practical part of previous coursework and projects.
  • Establish coherent and sustainable links between your own practical work with that of historical and contemporary reference.
  • Be aware of some of the methods employed by critics and historians within the history of art and photography.
  • Demonstrate a sound understanding of your chosen area of study with appropriate use of critical vocabulary.
  • Show evidence for an ongoing critical and analytical review of your investigation – both your written essay and own practical work in response to research and analysis.
  • Develop a personal and critical enquiry.
  • Culminate in an illustrated written presentation.

How to get started: Link your chosen area of study to your previous work, knowledge and understanding based upon your chosen theme(s) of FAMILY or ENVIRONMENT.

It is expected that you will continue to explore an idea or a project that you have already started in your Personal Investigation module. You have 7 weeks in lessons and over 2 weeks at Christmas to complete your Personal Study including all relevant blog posts and a photo book with your illustrated essay. There is still time for you to make new images and we expect you to complete at least 4-5 new shoots in the next 4-5 weeks.

For further inspirations and starting points see blog post Past Personal Studies from previous students,, including links to photo books and essays.

Here is a link to a range of photo essays by MA Photography students featuring on the BBC Website currently…

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/in-pictures-38142496

All other resources, PPTs, Essay tools etc go to:
M:\Departments\Photography\Students\Resources\Personal Study

Week 12: 27 Nov  – 3 Dec

Objective: Criteria from the Syllabus

  • Essential that students build on their prior knowledge and experience developed during the course.

Lesson task: Choose one Personal Study from past students, either from blog post above or photobooks in class. Look through sequence of images carefully and read the essay. Present the study in class and comment on the book’s, concept, design and narrative. Review the essay and comment on its use of critical/ contextual/ historical references, use of direct quotes to form an argument and specialist vocabulary relating to art and photography. Make an assessment using the mark sheet and calculate a grade.

Blog: Produce a number of posts that show evidence of the following:

  1. Review and reflect on your Personal Investigation and write an overview of what you learned and how you intend to develop your Personal Study project. Describe which themes, artists, approaches, skills and photographic processes inspired you the most and why. Include examples of previous work to illustrate your thinking.

Objective: Criteria from the Syllabus

  • Select artists work, methods and art movements appropriate to your previous coursework work as a suitable basis for your study.
  • Investigate a wide range of work and sources.
  1. Artists References: Research artist/photographers, methods and  art movements appropriate to your Personal Study.
  2.  Find at least 3-5 sources (articles, books, blog, website, films etc) about your artists and contextual studies.

Homework – Independent Study:
Begin to read, make notes, identity quotes and comment to construct an argument for/against. Review and reflect on how you intend to respond to their work.

Week 2: 4th – 10th Dec

Objective: Criteria from the Syllabus

  • Establish coherent and sustainable links between your own practical work with that of historical and contemporary reference.
  • Develop your written dissertation in the light of your chosen focus from the practical part of previous coursework and projects.

Blog: Produce a number of posts that show evidence of the following.

  1. Think of a hypothesis and list possible questions.

Here is a list of  possible questions to investigate that may help you.

2Essay Plan: make a plan that lists what you are going to write about in each paragraph – essay structure.

  • Essay question:
  • Opening quote
  • Introduction (250-500 words): What is your area study? Which artists will you be analysing and why? How will you be responding to their work and essay question?
  • Pg 1 (500 words): Historical/ theoretical context within art, photography and visual culture relevant to your area of study. Make links to art movements/ isms and some of the methods employed by critics and historian. Link to powerpoints about isms andmovements M:\Departments\Photography\Students\Resources\Personal Study
  • Pg 2 (500 words): Analyse first artist/photographer in relation to your essay question. Present and evaluate your own images and responses.
  • Pg 3 (500 words): Analyse second artist/photographer in relation to your essay question. Present and evaluate your own images and responses.
  • Conclusion (250-500 words): Draw parallels, explore differences/ similarities between artists/photographers and that of your own work that you have produced
  • Bibliography: List all relevant sources used

3.  Academic sources and use of Quotation and Referencing.

  • Research and identify 3-5 literary sources from a variety of media such as books, journal/magazines, internet, video (Youtube).
  • Begin to read essay, texts and interviews with your chosen artists as well as commentary from critics, historians and others.
  • It’s important that you show evidence of reading and draw upon different pints of view – not only your own.
  • Take notes when you’re reading…key words, concepts, passages
  • Write down page number, author, year, title, publisher, place of publication so you can list source in a bibliography
  • Use quotes to support or disprove your argument
  • Use quotes to show evidence of reading
  • Use Harvard System of Referencing…see Powerpoint: harvard system of referencing for further details on how to use it.

Homework – Independent Study:
Complete first shoot during next week!

Week 14, 15 & Christmas Break: 11th Dec 8th Jan

Objective: Criteria from the Syllabus

  • Show evidence for an on-going critical and analytical review of your investigation – both your written essay and own practical work in response to research and analysis.

Blog: Produce a number of posts that show evidence of the following:

  1. Finish a draft version of your introduction (500 words) and publish on blog by no later than Wed 3 January. Think about an opening that will draw your reader in e.g. you can use an opening quote that sets the scene. You should include in your introduction an outline of your intention of your study e.g. what and who are you going to investigate. How does this area/ work interest you? What are you trying to prove/challenge, argument/ counter-argument? Include 1 or 2 quotes for or against. What links are there with your previous studies? What have you explored so far in your Personal Investigation, or what are you going to photograph? How did or will your work develop. What camera skills, techniques or digital processes in Photoshop have or are you going to experiment with?

2 . Produce a detailed plan of  at least 3-4 photo-shoot for the following month, including Christmas holidays. Produce a photographic response to your investigation in Personal Study.  For example, explore your ideas, plans, narrative and experiment with story-telling approaches, subject-matter, style, form (lighting, composition) or specific skills, techniques, methods influenced by artist-references.

Homework – Independent Study:
 You must conclude at least 2-3 different shoots over Christmas!

 

 

 

 

My Artist Statement & Evaluation of Work for Exhibition

Here is my artist statement which will go alongside my series of work at the exhibition. I have attempted to be as descriptive as possible in order for my audience to get not only a cohesive visual narrative to follow but also a text driven perspective of the project which should complement the imagery well enough to tell a strong story. I have done this by explaining my thought processes as well as my inspiration I took for the series.

3 Diptychs Representing a Childhood Memory

The brain is a magical organ of our body; it has the ability to hold limitless information, thoughts, ideas and memories from times forgotten. Taking inspiration from Rita Puig-Serra Costa, these 3 diptychs come from a series encapsulating the notion of childhood nostalgia. For most of us, our memories from childhood are a certain haze which, as we grow older, becomes more and more of a distant recollection of a time which is hard to understand the details of.

In this catalogue of works, I have explored the relationship we have with memories from our past – whether happy or upsetting, they exist and are sometimes consigned to an archive in our brain to be forgotten. Memories generate an emotion which may be difficult to describe but easier to visually portray. Using my Nan, Mum and Girlfriend, I have created a collection of juxtapositions between portraits and still-life object-imagery which represent their own childhood reminiscence.

A photograph is often a fragmentation of the truth and represents a one dimensional perspective but I have attempted to create a decryption of what is often hidden in this series. Each diptych is accompanied by a handwritten note from each subject explaining the context of their choice of memory.


Evaluation:

For the exhibition which is beginning on Monday 27th November, I will not be presenting images produced for my study into my own relationships with people around me and instead, 3 diptychs which I created for a series looking at childhood memories. I decided not to use the photographs I have made thus far for my ‘relationships’ project as I wanted to show my project used to get to the stage I am now with my coursework – being the series focusing on childhood nostalgia. As well, I wasn’t happy, after experimenting with presentations using images from my current coursework, with the images I already have because altogether when clustered as a whole, did not work poetically in the way I wanted them to and instead, found the my other photographs worked better together as it was a completed and cohesive narrative about childhood recollections. I am very happy with my selection of three diptychs and will explain why…

When I set out to produce work inspired by the tableaux vivant scene which was very prominent in theatre and art in the 1800s and 1900s, but for photographic tableaux’s, not until the late 1900s, I wanted to encapsulate the idea of tableaux but put a modern twist on it and make much more conceptual in relation to photograph techniques and styles. My intention was to present an alternative approach to tableaux work by ‘rec-crating’ a childhood memory in relation to each of my family members. To ‘recreate’ a moment which may be long forgotten from a time which is very distant, I wanted to show the memory in its physical form, and therefore asked my subjects to retrieve an object which reminded them of their childhood. I also wanted to show this relation to the owner of the object and focus on a portrait to illustrate a character which can be put with the memory. I set out to recreate the memory in a variety of ways – one was for the subjects benefit and pleasure to reminisce about a time forgotten. When they retrieved their object and brought it to me to photograph, it was a moment for them to also tell me the meaning behind it and they also were able to do this through their own articulation onto paper. As well, the discovery of the past of my family was special for me to hear because I can relate to some of the stories.

I feel like I have curated an impressive portfolio of images and I am very happy with it because it different to what I have found myself doing in previous projects – it is much more simplistic in its style and nature and does not rely on heavy post production to create a captivating image and instead, it’s much more conceptual and poetic form benefits its outcome and influence on the viewer. I feel like I have created a visual shrine for the subjects to interact with – my collaboration and inclusion of my subjects on an intimate basis has made for an emotive story about nostalgia of past times – inspired by Rita Puig-Serra Costa and her project ‘Where Mimosa Bloom’ which also uses the idea of objects from personal archives paired with portraits to tell a narrative.

Images from Canon Prima AS-1 Film

From my point and shoot camera, the Canon Prima AS-1, I have developed my first roll of film and the images achieved from the roll of 36 exposures were both successful but unsuccessful considering this is the first time I have used the camera – a handful of the images were not of good quality as the flash was stunned in images where it didn’t need to be, resulting in low quality images where subjects are washed out. However, most of the images came out very well, including the ones below, which I intend to use in my project as diptychs. I will use this first experience with my retro camera as a learning curve where I was getting use to how it works and what the best settings were, even though it is a point and shoot. I will, next time, use the flash on lesser occasions to get sharper and clearer images.

The roll of film developed was used gradually over the period of about 3 months and of these 36 exposures, quite a few were from mine and my girlfriend’s trip to Sark, our neighbouring island for a couple of days. The first 4 images you see below are from this trip and are 4 images I hope to use in my project to represent an aspect of mine and my girlfriend’s relationship.

The first set of images consists of two photographs, a portrait of Lucy on the sunny day it was with a seascape as the background. The second image of this particular diptych is of the seascape alone where you can see a couple of rocks within the ocean and, in the foreground, some greenery from the cliff we were on. I believe these two images work well together as it shows a portrait and then the landscape which as originally partly blocked by the portrait – this I s why they work well together as they include the same colours and same content. The two images below are full of vibrant colours as well as shadows and dark contrasts.

The two images below act as my second diptych from our time in Sark, however, this time, the subject I myself and it follows the same sequence as before. The first image is a portrait of myself, taken by Lucy and it is a side profile of me looking out to a landscape, on a different day to the above occasion.

The second image below the portrait is of the landscape I ma looking out at. It follows the same concept as the above images where the portrait is the primary image and then the full landscape is revealed.

As to as taken on a different day to the above images, the colour palettes and temperatures are different and this time, the look is more gazed – as if the colours are more faded out and there was less sun on this day as it looks more foggy and misty but this adds a different mood to the diptych – one which presents a variety of washed out neutrals of beige, white and greys in the sky bit also in the sea.

I believe that the images below can also work in a diptych, however, they may look better presented separately considering they are of two different scenes.

The first is an image, taken on a day out to Tamba Park with my sister and girlfriend. It’s an image which includes myself and my sister at the top of a slide in the park. You can see myself looking, smiling at Minnie while she pulls a cheesy grin to the camera.

The second image includes Lucy and Minnie both mid-laugh as Minnie slides down the fireman’s pole – an image I love but could do with cropping a little. They both, again, show relationships between us all – my relationship with Minnie and Minnie’s relationship with Lucy. The sense of intimacy as well as fun and playfulness is the underlying theme in thee two photographs and they work well to show the notion of being young again and enjoying yourself – youth prevails. It can also be a metaphorical reverse of my childhood when I used to play in parks with my parents. Now, me being the adult, I find myself being a child again with my own sister at such a tender age she is at – she reminds me of myself and this is representative in the first image of myself looking at her as we prepare to launch ourselves down the slide.

This was another image I came across from the roll of film developed which I had forgotten I had taken but shows the process of when myself, my mum and my step-dad moved house form St Brealde’s to Grouville. The image frames the pick-up truck we used to transfer old and unwanted furniture to the dump. It is an image which may useful when encapsulating the use of loss at the very start when looking at my mum and dad’s divorcee – as we pack up our belongings and prepare to lead a new life somewhere else with new surroundings. We are getting rid of unwanted things and it reiterates the idea of being attached to something so dearly but eventually, you have to let go of that thing which was so important in your life – a house or a partner.

These images remind of that of Arno Brignon’s from her series focusing on her daughter, Josephine due to the graininess which I achieved from the film camera and the vibrant yet hazed colour palettes with observations of darkened contrasts.

Plan for Constructed Realities Exhibition

For the exhibition which takes place at The Jersey Arts Centre on 27.11.17 entitled ‘Constructed Realities’, I have decided to not use images made thus far from my ‘relationships’ project for my coursework, and instead, use the images I produced from my tableaux shooting which I focused on the concept of childhood memories.


The exhibition’s synopsis is on the Arts Centre website and explains the purpose of the exhibition:

“This exhibition brings together work by Hautlieu School A-Level Photography students including their responses to a series of inspirational workshops, masterclasses and lectures delivered by Archisle International Photographers in Residence 2017 Tanja Deman and Jonny Briggs. The classes have been hosted by Hautlieu School in partnership with the Archisle educational programme and represent a range of multi-media creative outcomes inspired by the themes of family and environment.” 

The exhibition takes place from Monday 27th November to Saturday 23rd December.


I have been using the last month of my studies to construct my own personal study surrounding the ideas of relationships in my own family. In my previous blog posts, I have given a justification of what my project is about and what it encapsulates, as well as its purpose and I have been busy producing images to eventually come together to provide the main body of my project which wull also be accompanied by text and transcriptions from interviews with my parents. The project is kick-started by my parents divorce when I was 4 years old and this then branches out to a much wider topic of relationships – relationships which I have built with people who I have come to grow up with in my life during the time in which I have matured and become more knowledgeable of the world around me. From a divorce, I have experienced two different relationship with both my parents and this has affected myself as a human and the young man I am now – from which, I have built my own relationships and experienced my own interpretation of love. I now have a half-sister who is currently 4 years old and I also have a girlfriend – my first love and this concept of relationships and love, as well as underpinning topics of loss, lust, attachment and fear is beginning to make for an interesting narrative where I tell the story of my life from a child to a young man – a narrative in which I am the center point.

However, this narrative is not yet constructed enough to tell a cohesive story as I have not been working on it for a long enough period of time to feel as if I can show this as a catalogue of work which the audience can connect with. As well, because the project is based around a range of different divisions made up of the starting point of my mum and dad’s relationship, their divorce, my relationship with both of them and then leading onto my relationship with both my sister and girlfriend, I have so far, only got a mixture of these different aspects – adding to the idea of telling a confused and dislocated narrative, difficult to understand at this point. This is why I have chosen to exhibit my previous work using the relationship between people and objects to show childhood memories as this relates to how I am working now and it also shows my journey to where I am now.

I have again, shown this series of work in a previous blog post so will not explain it here and instead, this will be done more concisely and poetically in my artist statement which will be present at the exhibition for my audience to get an idea of what the work is. However, I feel like the series of work I will be showing is still very strong and does portray a message – a message of nostalgia which my viewers can all relate to and I believe that the use of portraits as well as objects, provides an interesting juxtaposition which is also accompanied by a very powerful image of a note each of my subjects wrote to explain their choice of ‘memory’. As well, the use archives is reliable to what I am doing now as I will be looking further into the idea of old memories which bring back either good or bad thoughts. I feel like delving into your onw personal, family archive can generate so many emotions and the showing the relation between this memory and the person it is related to tells an interesting story.

Therefore, for the exhibition in a couple of weeks, I have created a couple of digital versions of potential layouts I can achieve to show my images on a large scale.


In Photoshop, I created a couple of mock up displays of what I may produce for the real exhibition in which my images will be displayed on. Below is the first display I created, but realised, this may be difficult to achieve due to the lack of space we each have to present our work.

The second mock-up I produced took into account the space I am allowed and this is the display I am most likely to use. As you can see, I have also put in my images to the same set out to see what it would look like.

I intend to have each diptych below one another, creating a stair-like display as ach diptych will not be placed directly underneath and instead, to the side. Next to each diptych will be the note the subject handwrote which I then photographed in their hand. The diptychs will be A3 and the notes, A5. I hope for the outcome to be very contemporary and visually pleasing. As well as telling a story of memories as a whole, each combination of the portrait, object and note tells its own story of the subject.

 

From the original images I had of the handwritten notes by each of my family members relating to the meaning behind their chosen object, I have altered them to be in black and white as I believe this looks much more effective because of the contrast available to me – I increased these when editing so that there is a clear contrast between illuminated whites and darkened blacks to create shadows against the white paper held in their hand.


Here is my artist statement which will go alongside my series of work at the exhibition:

3 Diptychs Representing a Childhood Memory

The brain is a magical organ of our body; it has the ability to hold limitless information, thoughts, ideas and memories from times forgotten. Taking inspiration from Rita Puig-Serra Costa, these 3 diptychs come from a series encapsulating the notion of childhood nostalgia. For most of us, our memories from childhood are a certain haze which, as we grow older, becomes more and more of a distant recollection of a time which is hard to understand the details of.

In this catalogue of works, I have explored the relationship we have with memories from our past – whether happy or upsetting, they exist and are sometimes consigned to an archive in our brain to be forgotten. Memories generate an emotion which may be difficult to describe but easier to visually portray. Using my Nan, Mum and Girlfriend, I have created a collection of juxtapositions between portraits and still-life object-imagery which represent their own childhood reminiscence.

A photograph is often a fragmentation of the truth and represents a one dimensional perspective but I have attempted to create a decryption of what is often hidden in this series. Each diptych is accompanied by a handwritten note from each subject explaining the context of their choice of memory.

 

Philophobia / Autophobia

As I have been generating ideas for my personal study surrounding the idea of relationships within my own life and my own family, I have also generated a few ideas which I believe I could draw into the study at some point to accompany other main ideas.

Although not familiar with the phobia as no one I know has this particular phobia, I believe it to be a very interesting concept which may work quite well as an underpinning theme throughout my project; I have started to research into the phobias of love and lonesomeness and I feel may be able to express these a ceratin way through my own interpretation of them – as this is only what I can do as I don’t know anyone with the fears but believe their relation to my main theme of ‘relationships’ could go hand-in-hand quite well as the two phobias are often scientifically linked with one another also.  Although, I don’t have to directly or explicitly make it obvious or known that I am addressing the phobia in my own interpretation of it, it can be a concept that the audience eventuality realise as they progress through the book – or a concept that may be evident to certain people depending on the way they read visual prompts or it may only be noticeable to myself, however, would like to, in some way, represent what I believe a fear of love/loneliness may look like.

However, if I was going to show these phobias in some way in my project, I would have to be careful not offend anyone who may have it but would address it very carefully and very subtly to contrast the idea of cohesion and unity between the people you love – I first came up with the idea after realising the divorce of my parents would make an interesting starting point for a story about love and relationship. Love is such a strong concept that can unify people in ways which we like to think cant be broken but eventually, may become broken – in the process of breaking the people involved in the relationship whether it be romantically or emotionally with a relative. My efforts to re-build a relationship which feels like it has been somewhat lost with my dad also links to this idea.


(Words from fearof.net) The fear of love (or falling in love) phobia is known as Philophobia. The word originates from Greek “filos” which means ‘loving or beloved’. Individuals who suffer from this phobia fear romantic love or forming emotional attachments of any sort. Often this phobia is known to have cultural or religious roots, where the person may have been committed to an arranged marriage and hence fears falling in love.

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This phobia is more common in women than in men. The condition can greatly affect one’s life to an extent that it becomes difficult to commit or form healthy relationships. Such people tend to live their lives in solitude.

Philophobia is an unwarranted and an irrational fear of falling in love. Sometimes, the sufferer does fall in love but it causes an intense emotional turmoil in his/her mind. There are many theories why this could happen. Therefore, there is a possibility of falling in love when you are a sufferer of this fear but it may still remain in your mind – the idea that you fear to form any sort of emotional connection with a partner and this may hinder your relationship as a result.

Symptoms may include:

Some people are so afraid of love that they cannot open up to anyone. They do have committed relationships, but cannot maintain any of them.

Their well being often depends on the responses they receive from the person they love. This can keep them high strung and anxious all the time. They may be extremely possessive or, conversely, they may drive away their loved ones with their detachment.

One also experiences severe anxiety owing to the pressures of commitment: restlessness, shallow breathing, rapid heart rate, nausea, chest pains etc are a few physical symptoms that can be attributed to Philophobia.

Panic and anxiety attacks are also common. These can be terrible since the sufferer often feels dizzy, or feels like running away, crying, shaking or sweating profusely or even feels as if s/he is fainting.


Autophobia, also called monophobia, isolophobia, or eremophobia, is the specific phobia of isolation; a morbid fear of being egotistical, or a dread of being alone or isolated. Sufferers need not be physically alone, but just to believe that they are being ignored or unloved.

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Autophobia can be associated with or accompanied by several other phobias such as agoraphobia. This means people might be afraid of going out in public, being caught in a crowd, being alone, or being stranded.

Persons suffering from autophobia are unable to do many simple tasks that most can do easily. The fear of being alone also leads to bad relationships as the individual prefers abuse to being left alone – the area in which I believe I can link relationships with these two fears.

Physical symptoms:

Feeling unsteady, experiencing lightheadedness or dizziness

Feeling of choking

Rapid heart rate, palpitations or pounding heart

Sweating

Chest pain and discomfort

Nausea or gastrointestinal distress

Trembling or shaking

Numbness or tingling sensations

As this seems to be a more severe phobia in which sufferers may become suicidal or may begin to self-abuse themselves, OI feel like this may not be as very suitable concept to follow through with and may focus mainly on ‘Philophobia’ as I feel like I could represent this in a more interesting and abstract manner by using my knowledge of love and its power and then transferring this to a direct oppostite.

A Discovery into my Mum & Dad’s Relationship

A couple of days ago, I went to collect a ‘box of memories’ from my dad’s flat to help me with my research into my mum and dads relationship as well as their divorce. He has previously told me about this shoebox he has filled with memories he has form his time with my mum. This includes postcards my mum sent from France when she 18 and my dad was 20. This was in the very early stages of their relationship when they had only been going for about a year, yet the postcards were filled with very cute and sincere messages telling my dad that she missed him and she can’t wait to see him. These are resources I intend to use for my project where I will photograph them against a blank background to achieve a studio effect where all you are focusing on is the object. These postcards were from my dads memory box as I said and he keeps it in his garage shoved underneath all his other junk and is often forgotten about until discovered when rummaging through the mess every year or so but I an glad I have got my hands on this to use the appropriate resources suitable for the story I want to tell. The postcards sent by my mum to dad will help to show the relationship the once had by using physical information – a love letter essentially. However, this, I intend to photograph very soon. Meanwhile, I have come across a new object which has sparked my interest to talk about.

Retrieving the special box of my dad sparked a thought that my mum might also have one of these, even though she has never talked or mentioned it or something similar before, as well, I had never seen something like it before, I believe this to be because my mum now has a very strong relationship with a new man which is a prominent figure in my life also who has been present in my life for now thirteen years, however, I asked my mum if she had something similar and she told me “yes”. This was great news and I was eager to get my hands on it to see what was inside and if there was anything that went hand-in-hand with that f what I found in in my dad’s collection of good memories from their time together. As well, everything I found was also new to me as I was very young when they split so remember nothing apart from myself speaking to dad about it. All the objects were new and it was great for me to see them and learn the stories behind them. However, when we went looking in the loft for the box my mum thought she had  kept in this particular place, we could not find it and we emptied the whole oft and looked through each and every box, yet the collection of nostalgic objects was not there. My mum, as well as myself, was mortified as it many I could not retrieve nay physical information and evidence form mum’s behalf of the great times my mum and dad had together apart from hundreds of photos of us as a family from me as a baby to me at 4 years of age. SAs well, it meant tat mum had lost this box she treasured and cherished because it was filled with memories from her youth – in the most happiest times of her life – when she met her first love, she married him and had a child with him – this was all gone. However, mum did have some images and cards from their wedding hidden somewhere else and this was where I made my amazing discovery which is perfect to begin the project/book.

Mum began to take all of these images of her and dad at their wedding out this small bag and within that bag, she picked out two cards – one form her to dad the day before their wedding and one from my dad to mum also on the before the wedding, and, by chance, the happen to be the exact same cards they both have to each other! I was shocked but also overjoyed at this because I knew it would be a great way to begin my project, epically after reading inside at what they had both written.

I believe this gesture from both of them and coincidence of this one in a million chance of them both giving the same card to each other, just with a different heart-felt message to one another shows the true meaning of love – that the two of them were in sync with one another and it shows tat perhaps they both knew what they other half would like – they both saw the card in shop and picked it up knowing that it represented them two as a couple and this coincidence shows the concept of love displaying the essence of unity.

I was desperate to photograph the two cards together and make some sort of image out of them! I wanted to create a diptych or one image of the two of them side by side and, although not yet finalised, I’ve got an image I quickly took of them together but the lighting is poor and the image above will not be my final due to the ‘slapdash’ finish of it. I also managed to get an image of the message inside each card. As well, for my final edit of this, I wish to have images of developed exposures from their wedding day alongside the one image of the cards to show the ‘starting chapter’ as such.

Inside the cards, both my mum and dad wrote a very loving and quite emotional message that came from the heart. In the card, they expressed their love for one another and their excitement to begin a new chapter in their life together – this idea of a ‘chapter’ is expressed not only from their words about their life, but it will make-up a ‘chapter’ in the book also.

My dad has never been one for being emotional with his words and is not the best at articulating himself, which I have grown to realise as I have grown up with him and his card was not as in-depth as my mums, which made me chuckle a little because this has not changed. However, although his straight-to-the-pint words are limited in comparison to my mum’s I had an idea to transcribe one statement/comment/sentence form each of their cards and insert this into the book along with the images.  My inspiration for this idea came from Yoshikatsu Fujii’s book of his own parents divorce where he includes transcribed statements from his mum and dad to tell a story more visually.

Below is my mum’s card to my dad:“TO MY DARLING ALEX,

REMEMBER IT’S JUST YOU + ME – THAT’S ALL WE NEED TO KNOW. WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR 8 YEARS AND TOMORROW WE ARE STARTING A WHOLE NEW CHAPTER IN OUR LIVES – THERE HAS NEVER BEEN A DOUBT IN MY MIND THAT THIS IS WHAT I WANT – YOU + ME TOGETHER ALWAYS, I KNEW THAT SINCE I WAS 16.

YOUR MY NUMBER ONE IN THE WORLD MY LITTLE ONE. 

SEE YOU TOMORROW, DON’T BE LATE!

ALL MY LOVE + KISSES

KATHERINE 

XXX”

The statement I believe I will use due to its significance is the point at which my mum says “you + me together always, I knew that since I was 16.” I think I would choose this statement because, for me, it is actually very relatable as I actually fell in love when I was 16 – my girlfriend now is my first love and this was the same for my mum dad – they were both each others first love so there is an uncanny similarity here.

Below is my dad’s card to my mum:

“TO MY DARLING KATHERINE

I LOVE YOU

HERE’S TO FRIDAY

THE BIG DAY

GOOD LUCK

HERE’S TO THE REST OF OUR LIVES TOGETHER

ALL MY LOVE, ALEX

XXXXXX”

From my dad’s card, I think I will choose to transcribe the statement, “here’s to the rest of our lives” because this was their plan and any other lover’s plan when they are about to marry each other and especially commit their lives to one another but it is a shame that at some point, the love does break down – not in all relationships, but many relationships end in a love which distances and becomes very difficult to express so this statement is very significant. However, I may not choose to transcribe any of dad’s statements from his card as the one from my mum speaks a lot.

The print on the card reads:

IN A WORLD OF RUSH AND CRUSH AND CROWDS,

IT ALL COMES DOWN TO THIS — A TENDER WORD, A GENTLE TOUCH, A SMILE, A LOOK, A KISS…

IT ALL COMES DOWN TO FAITH AND TRUST,

IT ALL COMES DOWN TO WHETHER WE’RE GOING IT ALONE OR KNOW WE’RE IN THIS THING TOGETHER,

IN A WORLD OF HYPE AND HURRY,

IN A WORLD OF PUSH AND SHOVE, 

IT ALL COMES DOWN TO YOU AND ME,

IT ALL COMES DOWN TO LOVE

The print on the card alone is very sentimental and is very heart-felt and it sums up love – that no matter what, you will always have on another – act as thought it is just you two in the world and nothing can stop you because love conquers all. I believe in this concept very much and hoe to show it clearly in my project.

 

Further Planning (Format of Project and Visual Diagram)

Over the past couple weeks, I have been producing a couple of handwritten documents/diagrams addressing the content I wish my project to outline and how I will go about this. Discussing and laying out directly the plan and format for my investigation helps not only myself, but the audience to understand my primary thought processes and the hopeful outcome of the project. 


This diagram shows how I wish to set out my project and what I wish to show in the order stated; The project will be based and will revolve around myself as the centre point and then this will branch out into the starting point which consists of my mum and dad; relationship when they were together until I was 4 years old, I will then briefly explore this divorce but then move onto experimenting the experiences I have had with both of my parents and how this is different. This will begin form when I was young and then gradually progress to the stage I am at now with my life and how the experiences I’ve had as a child have shaped me now – which is what the latter of the book will consist of – me as a young adult and the relationships of built independently with other people, including my girlfriend, my sister and my friends.

I have previously mentioned all of the below but I decided to put it into a diagram to make it clear for myself but also the audience. I intend to include other aspects, as well as portraiture and environmental imagery, such as self-portraiture of me with my girlfriend, and I will look at the project by Alec Soth called ‘Looking For Love’, as well as transcribed conversations or statements from the subjects and participants of my book. Over the course of the project, I intend to make a mini ‘behind-the-scenes’ film which shows the processes I go through to make the project which will consist of myself talking to the subjects and the discussing with me their memories they may have chosen as special, in particular, my mum and dad. However, this is just an idea and will finalise this when necessary.


The document below is a handwritten, essential hypothesis by me which outline the format of my project.

Although showing a cohesive narrative filled with the underpinning topic of relationships, I wish to in some way, segment and divide my boo into different parts but I may not do this for the final outcome as I may come to realise that it doesn’t look good and instead, the different images accumulated from each relationship in my life may look better merged together but, right now, I feel like I will be able to tell a better story if I was to physically split each part; my mum and dads romance, their divorce, the relationships with both parents and how I have two different experiences, one being a close relationship, the other being unwelcomingly distant. This will then branch out to my relationship with my sister, Minnie and I will bring in the concept of friendship in this part by showing the contrast between my mature relationships with my mates and Minnie’s very delicate and potential false relationships with her friends as they are still unaware of true friends which are meant to be built up over the years in which you grow and this could be an interesting concept to show – the fun-filled lives of kids the same age as Minnie which are worlds apart from min but in many ways, similar. I will then conclude the project with my relationship with my girlfriend, Lucy and this will show my interpretation of love in comparison to that of my mum and dads and may conclude the project with the same question/concept as that at the beginning – ‘what is love?’ or ‘the tenderness of relationships.

In this part, I will include self-portraits of myself and take inspiration from Alec Soth as well as LaToya Ruby Frazier and hope to show the similarities as well as differences between my current relationship to that of my mum and dads, using archival imagery as sources of inspiration.

 

Primary Inspirations/Thoughts for My Project

Primary Preferred Artists
  • Phillip Toledano – When I Was Six
  • Yoshikatsu Fujii – Red String
  • Colin Pantall – Sofa Portraits
  • Arno Brignon – Joespehine
  • Brooklyn Beckham – What I See
  • Paul Gaffney – We Make The Path By Walking
  • Sophie Calle
  • Hekki Kaski – Tranquility
  • Rita Puig-Serra Costa – Where Mimosa Bloom
Arno Brignon - Josephine

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“July 1st, 2009, birth of Joséphine. Doubt and fear mingle with joy and pride. Having a child can be the simplest thing in the world. For us, it was long, unlikely, unique. In maternity, they call it a “precious pregnancy”. It is also an imbalance announced to our life as a couple, a love story for two to rebuild to three.”

 

This series by French artist, Arno Brignon looks at the fragility of birth and being a mother and how carefully you need to transform your life in order to mold this new introduction into your being as human – what you lived for before pregnancy all of a sudden changes and this explored through a very diverse range of portraits and landscapes delicately addressing the topic of birth and the fear of your family crumbling.

I believe the concept and content of this very moving series is relatable to my thoughts for my project where I will look at the fragility of family life through divorce and the events that come after this. I love the colours in this series and the textures that are achieved from using film as opposed to digital. The graininess is very nostalgic and suitable.

Paul Gaffney - We Make The Path By Walking

The British Journal Of Photography writes “Nothing much is happening in the images and there are no people in sight, yet everything is happening; knotted, overgrown roots catch the light and weave in and out to form complex networks; a craggy cliff-side reveals an intricate patterned texture; windswept vegetation exposes an inviting pathway. Gaffney’s sensitive handling of the landscape allows his subjects to breathe, and through their very subtlety the images sing.”

It is Gaffney’s first self-publishes book and contains photographs taken in rural Spain, Portugal and France. The idea he explains was to explore long-distance walking as “a form of meditation and personal transformation.”

Although this project does not include any people whatsoever and focuses solely on landscapes and the environment around us, the images included in the series I hope will influence the style of imagery I capture for the images I produce of the environmental/location aspect of my project. What I like about the images are the very surrealist sense about them, as in some examples, it looks very overgrown with greenery and this often juxtaposes against an urban background. My images will not be as dramatic as this but will adapt the effect of looking hazy.

Heikki Kaski - Tranquility 

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Heikki Kaski (born in Kantvik, Finland, 1987) lives and works in Finland and throughout Scandinavia.

In the series, ‘Tranquillity’, there is a tension, a beat-down quality, that is beautifully conveyed in the barely balanced framing and dusty, drained palette of the photographs.

Heikki Kaski’s pictures of the town in California with a now population of 799 people and its inhabitants. It is a fractured series of reflections on a landscape that seems to have outlived its own history. He tells the story of the very quiet and isolated town and the people within through smart and sleek images of objects, portraits and landscapes. The images are very aesthetically pleasing and it something I am hoping to show in my project consisting of similar style images. Although a completely different context, the look and meaning behind the project will be similar to that of Kaski; I will look to the show the people that have a particular relation to environments and how this affects the lifestyle of these people. Although focusing on divorce, I am focusing on memories and the thoughts of my mum and dad that take them back to “good times” as such which will be displayed through very simple images of environments and portraits.

What I like about the project is the physical book which showcases the work so very elegantly. The set-out of the images on the pages, the colours involved and the overall look is very representative of the thoughts I have in mind to be minimalist in my presentation.

Rita Puig-Serra Costa - Where Mimosa Bloom

Rita Puig-Serra Costa’s work is very captivating and speaks lots about family and the relatives within shown through the thoughtful use of showing a family tree through the archival portraits of her family members.

Dealing with the grief that the photographer suffered following the death of her mother, ‘Where Mimosa Bloom’ by Rita Puig Serra Costa takes the form of an extended farewell letter; with photography skilfully used to present a visual dedication through speech and imagery to her deceased mother. This grief memoir about the loss of her mother is part meditative photo essay, part family biography and part personal message to her mother. These elements combine to form a fascinating and intriguing  discourse on love, loss and sorrow. “Where Mimosa Bloom” is the result of over two years work spent collecting and curating materials and taking photographs of places, objects and people that played a significant role in her relationship to her mother, writes the site’s statement in which the book is available of purchase.

The concept is something similar to what I hope to follow through with in my own memoir to my mum and dad and myself and the lives we have since followed after the division of the family. I will be focusing on the relatives from then and from now who have played  significant role in shaping my life to what it is now and who I am now because I feel using the technique of including myself and revolving the project around myself will make it easier for me to tell a better story.

I have already looked at the work of Serra-Costa and really enjoyed producing something so contemporary which revolves around the close collaboration with my subjects to produce the end result – I look forward to doing so again in my current project but on a much larger scale.

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My Idea

I am going to focus my study on my mum and dad and the event that changed my own experiences as well their own and the events we would come to experience together, as a collective throughout my upbringing as a child into a teenager and into a young adult to who I am now – their divorce. When I was at the tender age of 4 – when I was aware of my surroundings and what went on in my life – who my most closest relatives were and who I could put my trust into to develop as human to who I am now. At 4, however, you don’t know the concept of love and what the event of you being born can do to a couple who were once unconditionally in love with each other. It causes stress, friction and unwanted distancing from one another – love has the potential to eventually break the people involved.

I have therefore chosen to explore this very fragile and mildly taboo subject of divorce further in my own personal investigation for the year to come. The final result of this very in-depth and rigorous investigation about the relationship which was once there between my mother and father and to what it is now will be a photobook consisting of the images I aim to produce for the remainder of my A2 year.

When handed the task to collate several ideas about what you wish to hone in on for your own personal study at the beginning of the week, it is an understatement to say that I struggled to find something I had the passion and motivation to do. I wanted to focus on the concept of family because I feel like more of a narrative can be told through this concept and I was very eager to start exploring own family. Hover, I did not know what this “special” thing was that I actually wanted to look into because I couldn’t think of anything that would generate some exciting thoughts in my mind. I had the idea to use my sister – to show the contrast between my childhood and hers through t use of my own personal archival imagery, or maybe the use of my girlfriend and her own family and the juxtaposition of her own and my now family and idea of “family”, however, this did not excite me enough and I finally came to the conclusion to investigate the divorce if my mum and ad when I was at the tender age of 4. This very influential event has affected my life since the very day I found out the spit of my parents and even though I d not fully understand this very complex subject and concept when told at the time, it has followed me throughout my life and it has moulded how I am, as well the rest of my family, including my now 4 year old sister herself and my relationship with her.

I will be focusing predominantly on the work of Japanese photographer, Yoshikatsu Fujii. In particular, I will be using her book, Red String as my inspiration for my project based around my parents and myself and my relationship with both of them. 

Yoshikatsu Fujii was born and raised in Hiroshima City. He graduated from Tokyo Zokei University of Arts with BA in Art Film. He began photography work in Tokyo in 2006. His photographic works often deal with historical themes and memory lingering on in contemporary events. 

What I love about Fujii’s work is the very diverse range of materials and resources used in the book. Not only is the actual book handmade very carefully with fabric and actual red-string used as decoration throughout, but he has used archival imagery from his personal archive about his mother and father, but also inserts of texts and transcribed discourse from his parents and contemporary imagery to balance out the theme of looking back at the past but also living in the moment and exploring more about his present day family.

The reasoning behind the title ‘Red String’ is because of a legend that use to exist in Japan. In Japan, legend has it that a man and woman who are predestined to meet have been tied at the little finger by an invisible red string since the time they were born.
Unfortunately, the red string tying my parents undone, broke, or perhaps was never even tied to begin with. But if the two had never met, I would never have been born into this world. If anything, you might say that there is an unbreakable red string of fate between parent and child.

Fujii’s book about his parents divorce ‘Red String’

 

Mind Map of Ideas for my Project

Environment: Graveyard

On Tuesday the 10th October, I had a study period and due to my school being in close proximity to a graveyard, I chose to visit the site and develop a feel for taking images ahead of my visit to the churches of Jersey on Sunday. As I photographed the scene, I noticed the pictures were increasingly dark causing me to decrease the ISO to around 100/200 which decreased the grainy texture of the image also, however, for my shoot on Sunday I will bring a tripod and adjust the shutter speed so it is longer, allowing more light in.

Among the tombstones were elements of nature, for instance, this mushroom. I found this tiny little fungi in the middle of dead leaves, that have dried up in the moisture of winter. These two juxtapositions were interesting to photograph and stimulated ideas in my head to capture elements of dead vs. living in my project by using the graveyards of churches. In my mind, I envisioned the leaves to be symbolic of graves and the mushroom to represent a person temporarily visiting the dead. The mushroom grows through and is attached to the ground of the graveyard, giving an emotional attachment to this place by either memories or the burial of a specific person, demonstrating how there is a correlation and common ground between the dead and living.

Environment: Church – Specification

Churches are all around us in different shapes, sizes and forms for different religions. I am going to specifically focus upon the Christian church as this is an area I have the most knowledge in and within the Western region of the world, particularly England as  Christianity is the most prominent religion according to https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Religion_in_the_United_Kingdom.

Initially, I researched the influence of religion within my tiny Channel Island and that’s when I discovered; “two fifths of the island are… irreligious”, signifying the decreasing power of the Christian church over society. Getting as close to home as possible, I studied the history of Saint. Clement’s and the four churches within the parish, although only two of these are Christian churches. This is the parish where I live so these churches are very accessible, but with the help of my trusty moped and due to the small nature of Jersey I am able to study all Jersey Christian churches.  Following my research upon the religious scene in Jersey, I discovered Jersey’s established church is the Church of England, and although Christianity equates for half of Jersey’s population, wikipedia states  irreligion has been an increasing force in Jersey. A demographic which I come under as I am an atheist, however, I do respect the values that Christianity promotes, especially as they correspond with modern day law and legislation.

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The Parish Church

Fundamentally, what I do not support about Christianity is how in history and even more contemporary, in less educated global regions, the papacy have exploited the good-will of church goers for their money, demonstrating their indoctrination to religion. Recently, I watched a documentary known as “Deception of the Ages Nigeria”, which is available on YouTube. The documentary establishes this sense of exploitation of the lower class which angers me as these people have no money, they cannot afford for their children to have efficient education, yet the church is coercing finances from these families as they are not educated enough to understand the hoax they’re being gulled with, portraying life’s vicious cycle. This is just one of many examples I could provide to signify my anger towards the purpose behind the church.

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A Christian Church in Nigeria

In response to the task set, I have decided to steer my focus towards the Christian church and how they have exploited the ancient literature of the Bible to gain money and power from the common people. Another reason why the Christian church has angered me is as recently, I unfortunately had to attend a funeral for a family friend who is the mother of one of my close friends. At the young age of 47, this lady lost her ten month battle with cancer. This lady was a mother of four extremely successful and lovely natured children and this death would leave a void in their lives all too soon. However, on the day of the funeral, with hundreds of people attending who were crying, sobbing, snuffling, the church televised an extract from the Bible. The b***** Bible. At such a tender time, the priest discussed how now sweet Elizabeth will rest with God. I can’t really justify why this angered me except to say its selfish. At this point, these four suffering children are numb with tears streaming down their face whilst a priest recites a quotation from the Bible. It goes unsaid I appreciate my mother’s health and eternally grateful that I wasn’t in that position, but I envisioned myself in that position of my close friend. I imagined that I was stood in her position, crying and having to say goodbye to my mother for the final time whilst this priest mumbled and gargled shit from the Bible. I stand outside of the ceremony starring inside to again, see my friend crying which is when I remember a thing I once discovered from a source I have now forgotten but it was the ‘seven’ stages of grief and this relates so well to what I can see happening to my friend.

Coping with Death: Grief and Photography

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Seven stages of grief

Another reason to base upon my work upon grief, the church and orientate the production around the number ‘seven’ is that, within the content of the Bible, it states there are ‘seven’ deadly sins. I think basing my piece around the number seven will also give me some guidance to how I should arrange my work.

7 Deadly Sins List & Meanings

  1. Envy = the desire to have an item or experience that someone else possesses
  2. Gluttony = excessive ongoing consumption of food or drink
  3. Greed or Avarice = an excessive pursuit of material possessions
  4. Lust = an uncontrollable passion or longing, especially for sexual desires
  5. Pride = excessive view of one’s self without regard to others.
  6. Sloth = excessive laziness or the failure to act and utilize one’s talents
  7. Wrath = uncontrollable feelings of anger and hate towards another person

http://www.bibleinfo.com/en/questions/what-are-seven-deadly-sins

On Sunday the 15th of October, I plan to photograph as many churches as I can from outside in order to create a typology of churches. This will give me experience with photographing churches and discovering what churches are the best buildings to capture images of for future preference.

Due to my shoot being on a Sunday, I may also capture the services churches hold on a Sunday in order to gather more images for the future.