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The final evaluation of my project Three Chapters. 

Overall, I think my project had both positive and negative aspects to it. Firstly, the research and planning that went into the project I think was successful, I looked into a diverse range of sources including, websites, books, magazines and newspapers. I think it is important when beginning a new project there must be a comprehensive and thorough investigation into the theme and concept behind the project. Therefore, it was appropriate for the research to heavily influence my original work. The second part to my project is the actual recording and photo-shoots. I began my project by interviewing my grandmother, I wanted to learn more about my grandfather and the best possible person to talk to is his ex wife and best friend. The interview was very interesting and evoked a great deal of emotions from my grandmother, she found it incredibly difficult to talk about my grandfather. This then led me to begin looking at my grandfather’s past, I started looking at archive images that my mother had kept. There was a collection of images that stood out to me, photographs of him with his children, on his wedding day, at his retirement do, holidays, birthdays and normal everyday events. I also thought it was appropriate to look through the box my mother has of some of his belongings. There was lots of condolence letters and cards sent to my family, there was the death certificate, birth certificate of his child Christine Benning who is my mother and there were personal items like his after shave and darts. Other photo-shoots I produced were focused on personal items that I had found, images from interviewing my grandmother, photographs from visiting places that reminded me of him like Green Island beach and Queens Valley Reservoir. I think it was important to include several types of images for example, portraits, landscapes, close-ups and stills. The next aspect of my project was on the experimentation, each photograph was cropped, levelled and adjusted regarding the contrast and brightness. I used the black and white effect on particular images and especially concentrated on Photoshop when arranging the collage I created of my grandfather’s life. However, I do think that I needed to focus on experimentation a great deal more in this project. Therefore, for my next project I will specifically spend more time concentrating on the experimentation of the images I have.

With regards to the essay, I found it difficult to think of a title in the beginning but came up with the title ‘How has Boltanski, Abril and Toroptsov represented the concept of capturing the invisible and reflecting the meaning of memory through the medium of photography?‘ I think it was specific enough but  still allowed me to look at lots of different aspects and include my family’s interpretation as well as my interpretation. I enjoyed writing the essay because it explained the path I was taking regarding my influences from photographers, academics and artists. I found the analysis of images complicated and hard to understand sometimes due to some of the images being more metaphorical and therefore could have multiple meanings.  I wanted my introduction to be more poetic and abstract but I wanted the conclusion to complete the essay, basically finish it off by answering the question simply. I think the design of the book was successful, I researched the designs of books on the Blurb website as well as designs of other photographers both professional and amateur. My book design was a combination of scientific and metaphorical, I wanted my images to contrast and compliment each other. I thought it took a great deal of time to design my own book, especially when designing the essay into my book. I wanted it to look clean and precise but it was not as simple as I initially anticipated. I am happy with my final design for my photo-book, I think the title works really well and the sequencing of the images are strong. But I do think it would of benefited by project if I had started designing my book a lot earlier so that I could experiment with book more, with regards to the layout and order.

I think I have managed to confidently capture the concept of photographing the invisible and the idea of memory. I wanted to explore how the invisible can be made visible. I think the idea was initially quite daunting because it seemed such a complex concept but once I properly looked into it more, I decided the project would work.

Experimentation:

Experimentation:

For my experimentation I have taken inspiration from some of the artists I have previously researched like Laia Abril and Yury Toroptsov. I wanted to find a more interesting way of displaying archive material rather than simply having it as a single image, unless they are powerful and meaningful enough. Therefore, I decided to create a collage style page in my book I am designing. However, looking over my collage again I think I need to make the image size smaller so that I can put more photographs of his life in it. I want it to represent as many memories of his life as possible. 

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After looking back over The Epilogue I think I need to readjust the size of the images. They need to be a lot smaller in order to fit more photographs in and therefore more memories in.

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Designing my own photo book:

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When designing my photo book I was weary of overcrowding and putting too many unneeded photographs or quotes. Therefore, before I began by design I researched photo books which had been created through Lightroom in order to grasp an understanding of how to use the programme. I knew already I wanted to reflect Laia Abril’s style from her project The Epilogue. The essay needed to feature photographs from the photographers I had spoken about in it. However, I wanted it to remain looking clean and professional. 

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I included a variety of different image styles, for example I wanted to use landscape shots in order to represent the places that remind me of my grandfather. I also have included close ups for the detail, portraits of my grandmother and still images of the items and objects of my grandfather’s that my mother kept. It was important that the narrative followed in an appropriate sequence so that it makes chronological sense and aesthetically pleases the eye. 

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Before I placed the photographs in their order I developed them slightly, I adjusted the exposure and contrast to make sure the lighting of the image was right. I also amended the clarity and detail so the photograph would look more interesting and intricate. Cropping was also essential so those images which were either scanned in or needed to be similar to another image. 

Recording one- interviews

Recording three- interviews:

I have interviewed both my mother and grandmother in order to fully understand my grandfather’s life and the memories they have of him. I wanted to learn how my grandmother and grandfather met, the struggles of their divorce and how they managed to remain close friends years after. I also wanted to know what it was like to raise eight children and the type of life style they had. The more I find out about my grandfather the better I can produce images which truly symbolise him. Furthermore, when interviewing my mother I wanted to find out about the type of father daughter relationship they had. 

Interview one- Mary Robins

What reminds you of Richard Le Claire?

M- What reminds me of Richard Le Claire? My children, yes my children, er one in particular my second son looks a lot like him. Whenever I see him I remember, I remember when we were very young, we met when we’d play together, when I was about five and he was about twelve. That’s when I first met him, I didn’t see him for a few years and then I met him again and we use to all go out together, his sister Anne and Reg, they are both gone now. And we use to go sit on Howard Davis Park and have tea together, that reminds me of him.  He was a very very shy man, we use to go to the Dinner dances for the post office, it was my once a yearly outing. I use to dance but he didn’t dance. Sometimes after we had our meal and the dancing started he would disappear and go home. He didn’t like dancing but he didn’t mind me staying.

What sort of jobs did he have?

Well he worked for Horn Brothers for many many years but it wasn’t a very good paying job, and he was a carpenter and plasterer and it was hard work. Sometimes he would have to lose days because there wasn’t enough work for him to do, but then somebody offered him a job at the brewery. He loved the work at the brewery because it was inside and he made a lot of friends, and he worked there until he was retired.

Could you tell me a little bit about your wedding and your children?

My wedding, well we go married in the town church, I wore blue with a little hat. We lived together with the children, we were there until Robert, Richard and Jenny were born. It was quite an old house, the yard was pretty grim but we were very happy. But then we moved to Grassett Park when, I think I was pregnant with Michael, I had Andrew, Joy and Christine at Grassett Park.

Do you still have the wedding ring?

No, when we quarrelled he threw it away, which I was quite upset about really but we became very good friends after that we were only bad friends for a little while.

Do you miss him?  

Yeah I miss him, I was very upset when he died we had some good years together, we didn’t have a lot of money but we had fun. We made the best of what we had and we loved eacherother for a long time. I still think of him a lot and still love him.

Do you cherish the memories you had with him?

Yeah, I do, I do cherish the memories. I was very sorry he died when he did it was very sad.

Interview two- Christine Benning 

What reminds you of Richard Le Claire? For example, smells, colours, holidays etc. 

Do you miss him?

How did you deal with the grieving of your father?

Do you find comfort and happiness when looking at archive images of him? 

Final Essay

Question: How has Boltanski, Abril and Toroptsov represented the concept of capturing the invisible and reflecting the meaning of memory through the medium of photography?

‘Someone once said that you die twice: when you die the first time and when somebody finds a photo of you and no longer remembers who it shows.’

We are made up of fragmented memories and forgotten dreams. Our entirety rests in the fate of old letters, burnt photographs and meaningless possessions. We never question the invisible, it is as though we are on a relentless pursuit to try and capture what we cannot see.  We abide by the rules and limitations that are enforced by the concept of death. But what happens to those who become untouchable, those who are no longer part of the flux. Their existence becomes empty and lost, they are no longer perceptible to the eye. Yet we still feel impossible and unexplained connections to the spiritless. We yearn to cherish the ‘good’ memories and except the restrictions we are faced with, regarding mortality. In doing so, the feeling of life is created, the tangibility of pleasure and pain enters our worlds and consumes us. But, photographs hold heritage and meaning, they have a depth of knowledge and feeling to them. Photographs capture single moments of existence. They can tell a story of a second in a stranger’s life in an instance. Whether it be personal, isolated, private or rare, it is has an essence of being and timelessness. The allure of time, is its youthfulness. Time is the cure for it never fails to reveal the truth. ‘Human life is embedded in time: we remember the past, we plan for the future and we live in the present. We swim in an ever-rolling stream.’ 

I am exploring how the invisible can be captured and portrayed through the medium of photography. And why memories hold such a powerful influence over our past, present and future. I want to find out what makes a photograph meaningful, what gives the photograph reality and how through photography the memory of a person can live on. My project focuses on exploring the invisible through three female generation’s memories; this includes my grandmother, my mother and myself. These distinctive viewpoints will enable my project to become more personal and really seek the depths of my grandfather’s life. I think memory is more than simply remembering a once present thought, but it is about connecting with the past in order for it to live on. 

Christian Boltanski, Laia Abril and Yury Toroptsov all delve into the idea of memory, seeking a way in which they can capture and meaningfully discover the rawness of an image and what it can represent. I took a considerable amount of influence from Laia Abril’s photo book ‘The Epilogue’, her scientific approach to the reconstruction of a young girl’s life and death is both moving and deeply insightful. The viewer becomes emotionally awakened by the tragic narrative. For there is no escaping the feeling of missing a cherished one. There appears to be no cure except for time, time is what has made the scar of the family’s loss more bearable. Laia Abril’s interpretation of the concept of memories is identified in her project The Epilogue. The narrative explores the Robinson family’s journey and aftermath of losing their beloved twenty-six year old daughter, Cammy, to bulimia. Laia Abril reconstructed Cammy’s life through the abstraction of memories. She beautifully and scientifically crafted the grief and suffering the family fought, as well as, the raw emotions which surrounded the topic of remembering a loved one. A book absent of clichés, emotionally awakens its audience by the sadness and intensity the story brings to the forefront. The individual becomes invested in each photograph, due to there being some sort of significance shown of the young women’s life. The cover of the piece offers the first simplistic reflection of the nature the narrative. Personal readings, letters and clippings brings Cammy’s life into reality and makes her existence more than a death certificate. Diaries, agenda books and medical records express her desperation she must of felt, proving she once had emotions and felt the way we feel today. Archive images of family members, friends, houses, locations and objects symbolize Cammy’s life history and her importance as well as her mark on the world. In particular images there is a sense of honesty and peacefulness. For Cammy did not live her whole life consumed by the illness, therefore, had childish memories, typically ones which we would expect at a younger age.

Abril photographs several aspects of Cammy and her family’s life, however, I think the most powerfully beautiful images are the ones which really project her innocence, vulnerability and regret. A memorial collage of photos of Cammy, which is in the living room of the Robinson’s house, is alike to a snapshot of Cammy’s life. It exudes life and happiness, although this may have not truly reflected her feelings and illness she faced at the time. It is there for the comfort of her family to know and remind themselves that she once was a content and fortunate child. Abril has included a pop up of an extract from what looks like a newspaper. It could possibly be a memorial or announcement viewable for the public, Abril has designed it to lie next to the collage and create a shadow over it slightly. Although this is a very subtle detail it translates a distinct message; it shows the favorable memories behind the harshness and rawness of her death. Moreover, Abril creates an interactional style which allows an audience to become involved in the memories and life of Cammy, as well as, the curiosity of knowing and desiring to understand more of the invisible. On the opposite page Abril has photographed the hundreds of letters of condolence the Robinson family received. Again this contrasts with the following photograph of the collage, Abril has created a book that is a constant rollercoaster ride of emotion. The archival images used have been chosen specifically to evoke a sense of feeling especially the ones of her as a child. The photographs have history and meaning to them; there is an essence of the past and remembrance reflected through each one. The individual archival images have importance and uniqueness which symbolize the compelling nature of memory. Abril’s work inspired the idea for my collage of archive images I had found and been given to my family members. The majority of photographs in my project are concentrated on the death of my grandfather and his absence, therefore I felt it would be beneficial in order to create a piece which reflected small moments of his extraordinary life in a simple flick of a page.

Similarly, Yury Toroptsov toys with the concept of creatively discovering the invisible. Deleted Scene focuses on a journey in search of a father he never knew was led by an invisible path. With a relentless pursuit Toroptsov traveled to Eastern Siberia in order to tell us a unique and complex story. Toroptsov’s project is parallel with Abril’s interpretation of making the invisible visible. Furthermore, mutually they have intertwined the character and personality of the ‘people’ they are ‘photographing’. The topic Toroptsov is tackling is one many may struggle with in terms of the emotional exposure. Toroptsov has taken a more poetic approach with his style in this particular photo book. Rather than displaying objects and using archival images in an almost scientific way, he has explored the idea of creating his story from metaphorical photographs. The meaning behind the photographs he has chosen are not simplistic nor are they easy interpretations. They are filled with emotion and desire to learn who his father was. The images are ones in which you need to consume yourself in so to speak. However, when it comes to the concept of memory and photographing the invisible Toroptsov has allowed his audience to deduce whatever they will from the photograph. In order to successfully answer the question I have posed, analyzing a single image from Toroptsov’s project Deleted Scene, will support me with grasping a more in depth comprehension of how he has managed to photograph such a complex conception. As I previously mentioned Toroptsov’s work takes on a much more poetic and metaphorical approach, therefore I thought it would be appropriate to analyze a one which symbolized this. The title page of Toroptsov’s project is a simplistic yet inviting opening to the narrative, this is a particular favourite of mine in comparison to other projects I have studied. I think it is very clever how the design of the front cover hides the individual’s face, which is their identity. Furthermore, the colour it has been edited to brings a vintage and classical style to it. Which is further emphasized by the Polaroid type of photograph chosen to be displayed on the initial page.

The third academic to be addressed when concentrating on memories and understanding the medium of photography is Christian Boltanski. Boltanki believes every individual is unique, because of each one comprising the capability to think and remember differently. Implying we consist of all these experiences and memories. ‘What is most important is most fragile.’ Boltanski wants to touch people, even make them weep, in order to stir emotions. The role of art today in Boltanski’s view is to move people, it is to ask people questions about good and evil, about disappearance after death and so on. Although Boltanski has claimed he has no answers for such questions. ‘In my view you can equate the photograph with a dead body, just like an item of used clothing; it has the memory of something, and it is an object where the person behind it has disappeared.’ I think Boltanski’s analysis of memory offers an alternative to traditional views, as well as his thoughts around the medium of photography. He genuinely thinks people should connect with the art work and attempt to have an understanding of it on a higher level. Therefore, when completing my project I focused on the importance of having meaning and intensity behind the image.

Overall, Abril, Toroptsov and Boltanksi all have their own individual techniques and thoughts on how to capture the invisible and convey the concept of memory, through the medium of photography. I have found each photographer to be heavily influential over the development of my photographic project. However, I have found Abril’s project The Epilogue to be particularly striking and relatable. Likewise, Toroptsov’s project, Deleted Scene, proved to be highly effective with regards to the poetic and metaphorical interpretation of the concept of memory. For example, I photographed specific places where I felt memories of my grandfather were the most prevailing. Places such as Queens Valley Reservoir are key remembrances which are where I feel closest to him. As I am personally not religious, the idea of remembering someone or wanting to feel closer to them is not directly linked the church or other religious pathways. Rather, my elucidation of a religion and having the opportunity to remember someone is to surround yourself with a place which reminds you on that individual. Boltanski opened a more intellectual and exclusive attitude to memory. His approach made me think more deeply about the type of photographs I wanted to produce, for example, I created a photograph of a set of photo frames my family have on the window sill.  I have combined both artistic styles of photography to create a photo book which shows the complexity and intricacy of photographing an individual who no longer exists. I wanted to include emblematic images in order to truly express the value, worth and beauty of my grandfather’s life. For the time my grandfather was alive is not the limit to his existence, the memories which are carried on through family members such as my grandmother and mother are what make his memory live on. The archive images, readings and objects which I has used all have some sort of relevance to his life. Their continuing existence enable my grandfather’s invisibility to be visible.

‘I believe in the importance of every single human being, but even the most important ones disappear quite quickly, especially their little memory. What is most important is most fragile.’

Recording five- memorable places

Recording five- memorable places:

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This is one of my favourite images I have produced from the setting shoots I have attempted. I wanted to include abstract images of places I remembered as being linked to my grandpa in some way. When I asked my mother and grandmother about areas in Jersey where they felt connections to my grandfather they both mentioned Green Island. However, this particularly photograph I think will be used in my personal section of the book. I think this is one of the places I find makes me feel closest to my grandfather. Memories are different for all individuals and they can be brought about by many various senses. My grandfather lived his entire life in Jersey therefore he always was near the sea and this is what always makes me think of beaches. Furthermore, when I was trying to interpret a way I could photograph the beach without it being another mundane typical image, I thought about the concept of abstract styles. Therefore, when I was down the beach I attempted lots of different angles, view points and patterns. However, this was the main photograph which I thought worked really well. I think the undefinable lines in the sand are ever changing and clearly represent the essence of life and the distinct nature of memory.

Designing my photo book

Designing my photo book:

In order to create a design for my photo book I started researching photo books which have been designed on blurb. Blurb is the particular online website that I will be using to create my photo book. The site is easy to access therefore I can work on my project at home because designing my photo book will take quite a while in order to get it the way I want it to look. When considering the design on the book, I need to think about the composition, framing and placement of the photographs included. There needs to be an order as my project is a narrative so it must follow as a structure so that it makes sense.

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I created a mood board of photo books which have been designed on Blurb. I wanted to research this a great deal so that I can gain inspiration from books previously created using the same tools. As displayed below, there a numerous designs including full page spreads, collages and text-image cohesion. It is really important the book is designed in a specific way so the story is told well enough so the words which are featured in the book add to the narrative and are not required to explain the meaning of the images.

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Draft Essay

Draft Essay:

Question: How has Boltanski, Abril and Toroptsov represented the concept of capturing the invisible and reflecting the meaning of memory through the medium of photography?

Introduction:

Someone once said that you die twice: when you die the first time and when somebody finds a photo of you and no longer remembers who it shows.’

We are made up of fragmented memories and forgotten dreams. Our entirety rests in the fate of old letters, burnt photographs and meaningless possessions. We never question the invisible, it is as though we are on a relentless pursuit to try and capture the invisible.  We abide by the rules and limitations that are enforced by the concept of death. But what happens to those who become untouchable, those who are no longer part of the flux. Their existence becomes empty and lost, they are no longer perceptible to the eye. Yet we still feel impossible and unexplained connections to the spiritless. We yearn to cherish the ‘good’  memories and except the restrictions we are faced with regarding mortality. In doing so, the feeling of life is created, the tangibility of pleasure and pain enters our worlds and consumes us. But, photographs hold heritage and meaning, they have a depth of knowledge and feeling to them. Photographs capture single moments of existence. They can tell a narrative of a second in a stranger’s life in an instance. Whether it is personal, isolated, private or rare, it is has an essence of being and timelessness. The allure of time, is its youthfulness. Time is the cure for it never fails to reveal the truth. ‘Human life is embedded in time: we remember the past, we plan for the future and we live in the present. We swim in an ever-rolling stream.’ 

I am exploring how the invisible can be captured and portrayed through the medium of photography. And why memories hold such a powerful influence over our past, present and future. I want to find out what makes a photograph meaningful, what gives the photograph reality and how through photography the memory of a person can live on. My project focuses on exploring the invisible through three female generation’s memories; this includes my grandmother, my mother and myself. These distinctive view points will enable my project to become more personal and really seek the depths of my grandfather’s life. I think memory is more than simply remembering a once present thought, but it is about connecting with the past in order for the past to live on. 

Christian Boltanski, Laia Abril and Yury Toroptsov all delve into the idea of memory, seeking a way in which they can capture and meaningfully discover the rawness of an image and what it can represent. I took a considerable amount of influence from Laia Abril’s photo book ‘The Epilogue’, her scientific approach to the displaying of a young girl’s life and death is both moving and in depth. She thoughtfully inspires the ideas of a wasted life, an innocent women taken to early and the suffering the family must feel. The viewer becomes emotionally awakened by the tragic narrative. For there is no escaping the feeling of missing a cherished one. There appears to be no cure except for time, time is what has made the scar of Cammy’s life less painful to manage. Similarly, Yury Toroptsov toys with the concept of photographing the invisible